my session with my shrink

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#1 May 18 - 7PM
gettinbetter
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my session with my shrink

No new revlations this time. We discussed my ocd again. I told her that my family doc switched my medication which she wasn't thrilled about as I am going to see the psychiatrist in a couple of weeks and he may change it again. However she did comment that I did not seem nearly as depressed as I have been which I would say is true. She did note though that she could stil detect the anxiety in me as I spent a lot of the apptmnt fidgeting and I will say I do still feel anxious. What I don't feel is the deep depression. I can now tell the difference between when I'm depressed or when I'm anxious or both.

We discussed ways to stop feeding my ocd. The first and main one is to stop talking about him so much. Obvious but true she suggested I get rid of all the pictures. I told her I just couldn't get rid of the picture of he and I on my college graduation day and we talked about why. She ask me to bring the picture to the next appointment. Somehow I feel like next weeks appt is gonna be a rough one.

Oh yeah almost forgot I told her that now when I have thoughts of him I stop myself and say gettinbetter he is a PYSCHOPATH. He just is and he can never change and she seemed to think that was a good practice.

So that's all no big revelations but wanted to post for those of you who can't get to therapy

May 18 - 10PM
strongerthanever
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I had to purge everything.

I had to purge everything. All photos, emails, cards, and anything the exN left behind. If his evil energy was attached to anything, it would have stayed with me too. I dont want any memories of this relationship. I only have pictures of my exhusband, who was a Narc and abuser, for my son, his father, and he doesnt want to see them either. But, I keep them for him for the future. They are stored away and I do not look at them. The things that were left behind, i burned in a fire ceremony. I cried like a baby but, it felt great. It is therapeutic to burn, tear, or toss away a physical memory. Please take serious thought in getting rid of everything that his HIM attached to it.
May 18 - 8PM
peace11
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Out of site out of mind

I know It hurts, but getting rid of the pictures helps. :)
May 18 - 7PM
Hunter
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Love you!

Love you!
May 18 - 7PM
gettinbetter
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As I was leaving she hugged

As I was leaving she hugged me and said your a real sweetie. I said most people think so but not him and she said he can't. He's a sociopath. He can only think of himself