My Birthday
My Birthday
Hi All:
I've just come home from a wonderful birthday evening celebrated with 15 friends, old and new. I felt very blessed by the experience, seeing that I really needed the confirmation the fact that my loved ones were still there after the last 2 years with the XN.
I'm writing because I blocked my XN from email and changed my phone number and feel guilty and alone without him. I woke up this morning, thinking I could cope with the day after 5 weeks of NC (although the XN contacted me 2 weeks ago, although I didn't answer and promptly changed my phone number). I am really overwhelmed. I thought I was coping okay, but I have spent most of the day crying. I kept thinking about the fact that he couldn't contact me to tell me happy birthday and feeling guilty that I had cut him off. I know that he is thinking about me today and wonder how I should cope with that knowledge I miss him, even though there are many reasons to keep him at bay, and I just want to call him to let him know I want him here with me tonight I know he would come. Can anyone give me advice or support based on their experiences giving in or succumbing to the pressure?
Thanks so much in advance.
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