moving on. feeling stable vs. extreme highs and lows

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#1 Jun 23 - 1PM
nlvr7
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moving on. feeling stable vs. extreme highs and lows

i'm in a weird situation. i decided to take a long break from dating after the N. I have also cut my Mother N out of my life. I met a guy at the gym and I let him know that I was taking time to heal and I did not want a rel. So we became really good friends. I had surgery last week and he offered to take care of me and we actually became very close. He literally has just told me everything I want to hear. That my happiness means more to him than his own, that I have all the qualities he wants in a woman, that he wants a future w me, that my heart is safe w him. The thing is I BELIEVE HIM.

After narc however, I feel like what is wrong with this man who is making sacrifices for ME? I am dumb, I was the one dumped by the N - I am unworthy.

Away from the dating scene I am confident. I just think my Mother N engrained in me that I'm not worthy, that I should have been aborted that I'm a "mistake" so I carry this over to my relationships.

He said he would wait until I was ready but that no matter what my answer is he isn't interested in other women and he will wait.

He is very handsome and successful and makes me laugh and I do care about him. But this is the messed up thing... I was so used to the extreme HIGHS with the N that I feel bored with this guy. Here is a secure, stable, good guy who is capable of treating me like a queen and I long for a roller coaster?!?!

Has anyone else had these feelings when trying to move on after the breakup? I don't want to mess up a potentially awesome relationship. I'm so confused.

I am six months after d&d btw and same for NC.

Sigh...

Jun 26 - 1AM
no more an echo
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Please be careful

Jun 25 - 10PM
rosedewittbukater
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Agree with LessonLearned

Jun 24 - 1PM
NarcJunkie
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Be careful, nlvr

Jun 23 - 7PM
agnesmurphy17
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Boredom

Jun 23 - 7PM
lessonlearned
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don't rush

Jun 23 - 5PM
nlvr7
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just to clarify im not asking

Jun 23 - 6PM (Reply to #8)
LoserFree
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nlvr7 I know that last

Jun 26 - 2AM (Reply to #9)
Costa
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right site

Jun 23 - 4PM
Janie53
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Nlvr7

Jun 23 - 3PM
LoserFree
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nlvr7 I SMELL A NARC and the

Jun 23 - 5PM (Reply to #5)
Pearl430
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agree

Jun 23 - 5PM (Reply to #3)
nlvr7
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He only has 2 diagnostic

Jun 23 - 5PM (Reply to #4)
LoserFree
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Sorry nlvr7 I didn't

Jun 23 - 2PM
onwithmylife
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nlvr