Learning to live a normal peaceful life

After all that happened to me over the past few years its amazing to be in such a calm peaceful world now. I remember that feeling of fear when he used to come home , wondering what mood he would be in and trying to judge it very quickly so that I would know how to act and how the evening would pan out. It's taken some time to breathe easily and when it gets dark and about the time that he would get home , after the kids dinner , I sometimes stop and get this awful feeling in my stomach and I wonder why . Then I feel peace again. I think it's just habit still. The beauty is that he's not coming here anymore, he doesn't live here anymore and I don't have to pretend to be anyone I'm not anymore. He used to shout and put me down and then expect me to become some sort of sex goddess as soon as he wanted me to. If I didn't then , well to be honest I don't know because I always did what he wanted.
Now I get to watch tv, put my comfy pyjamas on and sit in bed reading magazines, chatting to my friends, eating the kids sweets when they are in bed and lay in the middle of the bed to sleep if I wish.
We have all been on such a horrible journey but what things are we grateful for now? What can we do now that the narc hated us doing?
I've got loads...... Long baths with my favourite music playing, when I drive at the speed limit I don't get someone telling me I'm boring , I can wear what I like, have my hair how I like .... There are loads of things .
Lets share the good things that have come out of them leaving.
Big hugs xxxxxx