Latest email Just gotta love him,,,he is hurting

HI NO SEX SUSAN
I miss you and wish things were better between us, but I just feel we have several irreconcilable differences and virtually no chance to come to terms and live with them happily aver after.

One of them being your idea of a "talk"
YOur idea of a "talk" is that you are able to go on a RANT.
A rant fro 15, 30 minutesor even an hour,,,,,,,uninterrupted.
That's not communicating,,,and one would even hbe hard pressed to even call it a talk.

Your idea of talk is verbal abuse plain and simple....
And noone in their right mind would allow you to do that to them.A conversation or talk about something with someone must be a TWO way conversation.
A conversation or talk about something with someon must be a 2 way conversatio.
That means you can't go on an uninterupted RANT!!

You make a point,,,that's one point and I have an opportunity to respond and visa versa!!!

Yet when ever i try this you say I am innterupting you because I won't allow you to verbally abuse me in in that manner.

That's why we never seem to talk. And your idea of a "talk" will NEVER happen with me.

So if you want to call and come over tomorrow after I get off work and talk,,,then I am fine with that,,however if you call to talk then forget it.

You have one set of rules for your girlfriends.
Another set of rules for me.
AND
A third set of rules for yourself.

If you do call then i expect you to live by the same set of rules you put on me!!
And I see that as one of our irreconcilable differences.

LIKE
YOu axplain away your yelling as your "normal talking voice:

WELL
It is only your normal talking voice when you are excited, angry,passionate or frustrated with something.

WELL
It is my normal talking voice under the same circumstances.

However according to your rules--and you are all about rules---it's oK for you BUT not for me.

And that's just bullshit,,,,another irreconcilable difference.
Over this even though you had one last chance and blew it,,,,I yet gave you another chance so you cold bring your computer over for me to work on for you. AND YOU blew it again because you said I was talking in my normal talking voice,,,when you told me.......................I can't even write this......because it further proves you just don't give a SHIT!!!!!!

That's just too weird that I would give you another chance and you would stand me up again.

Then there wwas last weekend too.
It's just a 30 minute drive for FUCKS sakes. YOur son wasn't comming until the next day and prbly not before 9 am
Yet once again you choose not to come.
THe proof is in the pie.

YOUR ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN YOUR WORDS and you have totally convinced me that there is just no future for us.

So i now see no point in sending emails or picking up the phone....esp when you hang up on me because I won"t let you RANT uninterrupted.

simply
YOU HAVE DONE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE. YOU HAVE NOT DONE WHAT YOU SHOULD HAVE DONE,,,and it is all inconsistent with somone in LOVE and truly wants to be in a relationship.
I realize that and I am fine with that.

You cannot fool me any further,,,Ive pretty much lost all hope
However having said that,,,if you want to call and come over tomorrow after I get off work and talk, and maybe spend the weekend that would be great,, I'm fine with that,,however if you call to talk then forget it.
So if not then NO problem.

Toooo bad sooo sad you lose!!!!

I would be happy to show you thru the house sometime after I finish the renovations.
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PS Thanx for the kind words abut my bathroom.

What do we all see here,,,,gaslighting,,,hoovering,,,projection,,,mirroring,,but then again maybe it was me,,,but no,,,,never ever once raised my voice or stood up for myself,,,and I have no desire to control ANYONE.

ANY COMMENTS????

Just want everyone to know I am progressing in some ways.Staying NC,,,,and really don't think about him much.

They are not worth our energy,,,,it needs to put towards us and our healing,,,,they will never heal because they just don't get it.

HUGS