keep having these moments of clarity

I was just sitting here thinking.....This SOB talked to me every day for three months after he moved across the country. Every day...texts: "Hey beautiful, how is your day going?" "I love you and I miss you" that sort of crap....Then he called me that last time and said "Im on my way to work, i was just thinking about you, do you want me to call you when i get off?" I said, "yes, and i will wait up" (It is 2 hours earlier there so I stayed up till 2am my time.) Piece of shit never called. when i texted him the next day i said "you are such a nice guy" he said "what?" I said i stayed up late waiting for you to call and you didnt! it hurt my feelings! He said "oh well i knew you would be asleep i ended up working later than i thought blah blah.....and i said well please call me tomorrow then. I never heard another word from that bastard until a MONTH later when he texts me: "Hey beautiful,Im at the so and so concert (he knew this was my favorite Rock band of all time!), I am thinking of you the WHOLE time, I LOVE YOU"

Looking back at this, That behavior is absolutely insane, it is NOT normal and I dont know why I am just now seeing this. These people are plain fucking crazy. who does that? Just acted like nothing was wrong and that we were best buddies and everything was peachy! My God I feel like I have been under some sort of spell and could not see clearly and now all of these sort of things are coming back to me and i see the total dysfunction of what he is.....I was really in denial, i dont understand this. Yes i am gullible but i am not an unintelligent woman.....I cannot believe this has gone on for 3 years...I am so ashamed that I allowed myself to be used. I just feel shame and regret.