just want to celebrate....

I just want to celebrate and I know it is sad but the past two nights I have only woken up once for the toilet. I have had nc for 8 months now and I was waking up around 3-4 times a night. It wasn't normal for me as I have always been a good sleeper. Sometimes I would wake really suddenly too. It's like my exN was pulling me trying to drain my energy in the night, bloody vampire!

quietude's picture

Glad to hear that you're sleeping better... good for you! I'm envious...not a good sleeper here. I look forward to the weekends when I can sneak some cat-naps in. :)
TexN's picture

I still wake up at night, usually around 3:00 am & think of ugly things about him. Then i stop myself & pray for piece in my heart. By that time, i can't get back to sleep & start thinking of how the narc is going to affect my dd's future, then i start thinking again about how much i hate him...Its just a vicious circle!
Barbara's picture

when my CPTSD wakes me about one of my Ns or Ps I say "Lord, send all this pain to XXX in a way he will understand. Send the hurt to him." Then I imagine myself with a ball made of mirrors to bounce all that energy right back at them. usually I go right back to sleep - but I also have chronic pain so that can wake me up too. plus Sandra Brown, MA has a CD I listen to sometimes before bed - helped me. ~~~~~~~~~ Moving Forward: Coaching for Victims Pathologicals Feelings buried alive never die. - Alice Miller
Healingnow's picture

I might get that CD. I will also try the protection that you mentioned. I still always think about him but not in so much denial like it used to be.