Just For Today/For the Newcomers...and to whom it applies...

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#1 Mar 16 - 1AM
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Just For Today/For the Newcomers...and to whom it applies...

I will take responsibility for not being savvy enough to smell the scent of a predator. I will brainwash myself that while I did not deserve this, I had every opportunity to walk away at the first sign that I ignored out of being naive. I will not change the loving person I was, I will strive to rid myself of negative emotions. I will steal back my power by refusing him the chance to win by destroying me.

I will win, I will overcome this, I will relinquish all thoughts of evil wishes to my higher power, knowing full well that justice will be served. I will embrace the concept that I cannot control anything but myself.
I will strive to see the good in me, knowing that the reality is, I need to own some of my "grandiose" ideas about myself, not in a conceited boastful way, but to see that I am a prize and that my validation never should have come from anyone else but me. I will rest assured knowing that I will come out of this okay, that I will come out on top in time. I will look at those in my past who have done harm to me, examining the patterns I have developed, and note how while dysfunctional at times, I dealt with people who had an MO that was self centered. I will examine where they are today, and compare their lives to my own, and allow that to be the validation being certain that when you live right, you are protected because God protects his children and he knows their hearts.
Justice is not mine, it is the Lord’s, I must remember that, and know that he is much more powerful at executing justice than I am. I will forgive myself for my outbursts, I will love myself and understand that I am not crazy and it doesn't matter what this person thinks of me because of my temporary insanity which was uncharacteristic of me. I will forgive myself for the rage knowing that it was a normal or natural response. I will not wallow in why he did this to me. I will not continue to see myself as a victim, simply because that is the power he craves, and it is time for him to starve.
I know he lost a great woman, and it doesn't matter if he realizes it or not. He has no feelings, he only serves himself. I will no longer seek to rescue anyone as a means of avoiding my own issues, but instead will strive to rescue myself because I am number one and the only one who can truly take care of me is ME. I am fortunate to have avoided a lifetime of insanity, instability and abuse, and I will strive to improve my self esteem with the belief that by working on myself, being kind to myself, doing things to make me happy will bring about serenity, peace and love. I do not need a man to make me happy, I need supportive PEOPLE. My goal is to find more people who are positive, interesting and intelligent so that I have the opportunity to give and receive those things which I hold close to my heart, and the chance to share thoughts, ideas and dreams. These people do not have to be my lover. I will cast my thoughts and ideas into the universe, asking for guidance on how to bring about changes to my life that will enable me to live life to the fullest.

Just for today, I will strive to make it NOTHING about him

Mar 16 - 12PM
whskywmn5
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Another good read

I copied this to my computer so I could reread it anytime I want to without having to be online. I want to someday be at the point where I can think along these lines. Keep up the woman work Michelle, I find great comfort in reading the things you post here.
Mar 16 - 11AM
IncognitoBurrito
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Michele <3

"My goal is to find more people who are positive, interesting and intelligent so that I have the opportunity to give and receive those things which I hold close to my heart, and the chance to share thoughts, ideas and dreams." Indeed.
Mar 16 - 2AM
ImStrong
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Perfection

Perfection

"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess