Just saw a picture of him-HELP
Just saw a picture of him-HELP
6 MONTHS SINCE THE D & d. No contact accept one phone call and some nasty texts that I send months ago.
I threw every thing away, wedding pictures, any thing and everything that reminded me of him.
I am doing the work. Internal, hard, wounds from the past, self esteem, work.
When I saw the picture at the bottom of the drawer, I froze. It was so tall and handsome. Sexy, cowboy handsome. And it hurt. I loved him to the depth of my soul.
But I have to remember, he has no soul. No conscience, no morals. But it hurt to see him. It hurts. I just needed to tell people that would understand. When does the pain go away? When does the love go away. I still love him. He used and abused me. Took everything. He took my soul.
How can I still have any positive feelings. They are not as strong, they are not as deep, but they are still there. It's not cd. I know what he is. I will not contact him for any reason. I will mail the divorce papers. How can I love someone that does not exit. Never did. It was all an act. The real person, is just envy and rage.
Help.
Jen
Grateful, I peeked at my ex
Before he packed on the pounds
Thanks guys, your the best
The love will not go away
Jen
gratefuljen
Jen you hit the nail on the
Jen- your wisdom here blows me away
Love yourself more
It is a very hard process.
It's such a hard truth to
Great move to come here and
When I'm
He's not an empty shell...