Just a matter of time
Just a matter of time
So the narc just contacted me. Started chatting to me online last night, I was very monosyllabic as usual and at some point logged off. However, I had a feeling that maybe things between him and the OW were over (just a feeling) and that I would hear from him very soon.
Today he called me (what a shocker)and I decided I was strong enough to pick up (I did not have that anxious feeling when the phone rang plus I had sort of expected it). So he calls and I think he was surprised I picked up. He asked me if I wanted to go to the movies with him tomorrow night (when I had started my half-assed NC we had had a weird "just friends" status, which I decided to put an end to by not contacting him any more and not returning his calls). I immediately said, "Nope, no time", which is partially true but let's put it this way: I could've made time for him in the past.
What followed was a really boring conversation where he was trying to find out how I was. I said, "I'm good, just as I already told you on chat last night" He wanted to know details like if I was already stressed at my job (this is a stressful time) and I was like, "Nope, not really, not if I am doing my thing and not letting people stress me" (meaning him). I soon ended the conversation and he said he'd call me again.
You know, this sucks. I mean thinking how much I used to like him and how much I wanted it to work out. I almost felt bad for him thinking he's a narc and will never be able to find what he's looking for. But it's his fault and at this point it cannot be undone. I have made up my mind and am moving on.
What was good about it is that I was really strong and this is the first time I actually said "no" to something he suggested. Also, I was completely calm during the conversation and felt like I was very much in control. I'm assuming I'll see him in a few weeks at an event, so there will be no avoiding him then but at this point I think I can handle it.
And in case you are worried I might start seeing him again: I won't. If he wants to remain acquaintances like we had been for 20 years before he started messing with me, fine but I don't want to be any closer than that, not even friends. So going to the movies - not an option.
Wow, Alisa, that's awesome!!
Thanks :) I don't trust
Thanks Alisa! You're doing so
Well, I hadn't really been
alisa dont do it
Jaycee
I hear you and I have been
One more thing: feeling good
alisa
Yes! After I had finally