Just Curious, How Important Is Sexual Attraction?

So, in my 54 years, I have always been attracted to very handsome men who are tall. In my 54 years, I have had 4 intimate (for me anyways) rs. All disordered men. Since my last N affair, many men have asked me out. One took off his shirt in front of me, one asked me to go home with him, one was so strange that it deserves a separate post.

I know that this is my ego acting out. If an ugly man is interested in me, he doesn't stand a chance.

I am working on changing this. My gf's brother asked me out. I know he is a really decent guy. He has the bluest eyes...my fav! and he's cute. He's a great dad to 2 adult girls, hard working & drug free. Now I have only seen him in his truck because he plows my driveway in the winter. Imagine my surprize last night when he comes to my door....all 5'5" of him. Gosh, I am 5'6".

We went out & I had a great time! He is so funny. He's a gentleman, he paid for everything, pulled my chair out & walked me to my door at the end of the night. His smile takes over his whole face.

I am working on getting to know the insides of people instead of the outsides. I can be judgemental.

I'm not looking for a r/s now, just missing the company of men. I have a date w/another guy tonite, we'll see how this one goes.