Jaw42's Story

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#1 Jan 30 - 12PM
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Jaw42's Story

Here it is ...

Its not a pretty story and feels like the heartache will never end. I met my N at work some 12years ago. I was (im ashamed of this aspect) just newely married and things werent going well at home. I took up his offer to "come over and hang out" one day. It quickly turned into him trying to have sex with me on the livingroom floor but i got up and told him i was on my period as something (other than the fact that i was married) didnt fell right about him. He was also married on his 2nd marriage at the time.
There was something about him i couldnt resist. He was so very handsome, his hair was always perfect, his teeth were so white they actually glowed,never a wrinkle in his uniform, his house so clean it was sterile. I found out not long after that day that he was messing around with another married girl where we worked.
This is a fact to keep in mind for later in my story..
After that day i really didnt talk to him anymore. I cant say why for certain as it was so long ago and at the time was just a "fling" .

12yrs later we are at a training class for work and he was there. I felt so awkward and couldnt even look over at him. I felt like a bashful school girl. I had recently lost my dad a few weeks prior and my husband of 12 yrs was no help emotionally whatsoever. The marriage was pretty much over .
After class we exchanged phine numbers. He started calling immediately and we were constantly texting and flirting. He made me feel alive and wanted. After a few months of lots of texting and calling it turned into much more.
Soon we were together everday , took a vacation, i spent ALL of my deceased fathers i herintence on buying him things for his house.. Right down to buying a hot tub! We are talking THOUSANDS ladies!!
We were (or so i thought) happy for about 2 yrs. i filed for divorce and it was a long drawn out divorce. The past year things went downhill FAST.
I never had reason to even think he would cheat on me (at the time, hindsight )til one day he cancelled our plans and lied to me saying his daughter was sick and had to go get her from school. I later as driving to the store and had to drive by his house and saw the girl that i mentioned i worked with from 12 yrs ago car in the driveway..!!

Make no mistake ladies i marched my butt up the front steps , knocked loudly and yelled at him to open the $&!*%*! Door! I could see him comming down the stairs pulling his pants on. He olened the door and his fac was as white as a ghost! I asked him who was upstairs and he said "noone" and blocked me from going upstairs.. Needless to say (im not proud of this) but i right - hooked him and left. I was sucked back in within a week! My bad!

Things went "ok" for while after that. Only because i chose to turn a blind eye in looking at it now. I was slowly discarded. He was found out ! Oh my ! I have recently tried the whole no contact but failed miserably but i WILL keep trying because i KNOW what he is now and KNOW he will never change. Ive caught him lying too many times after that and even when u have PROOF these me. Will still deny! I DO deserve better and there IS someone out there worthy!!

Jan 30 - 3PM
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thx spinning...im trying and

Jan 30 - 2PM
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Yes You do deserve better

Jan 30 - 3PM (Reply to #2)
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hopefully, this is

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