I've hit my rock bottom

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Jul 7 - 3AM
ewa
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Sad i know what you feel

Sad i know what you feel now. I was going through the same. I remember when i was walking the streets in my city and crying. I could not see any people around me in this big crowded city. But now I am ok. I do not have to be stressed about him sleeping with other women. It is not my thing anymore. And i feel so much better. Sad you can do it like Lisa wrote. We can all do it! Just believe it. And about the iphone. Please ask somebody to deliver the iphone to him. And let him sign the paper he has received it. It is better if he gets is back as he will not have this reason to contact you again. Just please do not deliver it to him yourself. There must be somebody who can do it for you..
Jul 7 - 12AM
Lisa E. Scott
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Sad1

Oh, Sad, I'm so sorry you are going through this right now. Betty's advice is so right on: "He is a psycho NARC. You gotta believe this with all your heart. You can not change the reality of this. The only thing you can do now is save yourself. Fight for your life back." You can do this, Sad, and you are NOT alone. We are here for you. I live in Chicago if you need a place to stay. I live alone and have an extra bedroom. We will get you through this. xoxo
Jul 6 - 10PM
wholeagain
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About to lose my battery

but thinking about you sad--sorta been there. Hang in there, you are worth more than this.
Jul 6 - 8PM
Happy1
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Thank you all for your

Thank you all for your support! I'm trying to only think of the current moment and not ahead so I don't freak out. I'm not alone tonight so I feel a little better. I am very afraid of the long road ahead but I need to keep going. I'm so thankful I have you guys! I'm so crushed and heart broken and I know I need to be strong. I'm such a sensitive person and this cheating is as low as he can go. He has done it so many times to me and then turns around and says I'm the most insecure person he's ever met. What a laugh! He cheats on me constantly and I'm the one the with issues! NOT! God help his next girlfriend.
Jul 6 - 7PM
broken23
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Sad I am so sorry to hear

Sad I am so sorry to hear this. i can feel your pain and your sadness. You are feeling a ton of emotions right now, from his cruelty. Please take care of yourself. Leaving and going to a shelter is a great idea. I am in the legal field, not in chicago but dc. And if you need anything or advice, ask lisa for my email address as well. Im going to be praying for you tonight. P.s that is a good friend sad. take her advice and keep seeing the therapist.
Jul 6 - 7PM
Leah2
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Dear SAD...

I have not been the strongest person on this board, and have myself been in floods of tears today, but PLEASE listen to your friend and to Betty2020. Go somewhere. Stay with someone. Please do not allow yourself to fall deeper. Sounds stupid coming from me, but I could feel your pain coming through my screen and wanted to let you know that you are NOT ALONE! OK? Please also think about medication--I started taking St. John's Wort, from a healthfood store (since I hate the idea of antidepressants)--a high-end one so not that cheap, and believe that it has helped me a great deal over the past month. Also got anti anxiety meds from my doctor which I am taking every other day to help sleep. WE WILL BE FINE, ALL OF US. Right now, though, YOU need to look after YOU and take all the help you can get. Take good care of yourself! XOXO.
Jul 6 - 7PM
betty2020
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Oh crap SAD. I know how

Oh crap SAD. I know how much this hurts. I have been down this road. As you go through this and the glasses come off you will see a lot of the truth. It is painful and shocking. You WILL survive this. I am right down the road from you. If you need a safe haven i live in the country and you can come here anytime you need to. I will come to you if you need that too. This mutant narc is just like mine. In the end the things i found were horrifying. Only more validation to go NC forever. It is time to get your life back. Stop drinking the poison. Your body is toxic enough!!! Contact lisa and get my email. we can exchange info and talk. You are going to make it through this i promise you this. You are much stronger than you know. xoxoxo

only one way to go...Forward (tm?)

Jul 7 - 3AM (Reply to #8)
Steph
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betty2020

you are amazing:)
Jul 6 - 7PM (Reply to #2)
Happy1
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thank you so much betty2020.

thank you so much betty2020. This is going to be the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life but I know I'm fighting for my life. I will ask Lisa for your email so we can chat offline. Thank you for your support! I hope I have the strength. I can't stop crying!
Jul 6 - 8PM (Reply to #6)
betty2020
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Listen girl this is what i

Listen girl this is what i want you to do right now. Go to the bathroom. Wash your face and dry your eyes. Look at yourself good in that mirror. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. You are not the defect....He was the defect. Nothing you did or could have done would have made a damn bit of difference to the outcome of who this guy is or your relationship. He is a psycho NARC. You gotta believe this with all your heart. You can not change the reality of this. The only thing you can do now is save yourself. Fight for your life back. The sooner your realize that this is a loss to him and NOT to you the better off you will be. Hes destroyed your self esteem and worked you over good. Get your self respect right now at this minute and get angry. Dont give him anymore of your precious soul. Im angry enough for the both of us right now and if i were there i might just hunt the bastard down and kick his ass my self. He needs his ass kicked by a chick. Douche bag prick

only one way to go...Forward (tm?)

Jul 7 - 3AM (Reply to #7)
Steph
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Sad1, I am so sorry for the

Sad1, I am so sorry for the pain you are in. Everything Betty2020, and the others is so true. You are NOT the problem. You WILL get through this - even though it doesn't feel like it now and there will be more difficult days ahead. The pain will lessen over time and you will start getting yourself back. You are strong - stronger than you think. I am happy you aren't alone tonight. Thinking of you and sending you strength:) xoxo
Jul 6 - 7PM (Reply to #3)
MsVulcan500
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Oh Sad,

I am so sorry for what you are going through now! It is truly heartbreaking when the truth kicks you in the teeth and there is no more ignoring it. Let Betty help you, you need someone who understands what you are going through. You will survive this. It won't be easy, but you will. You have lots of friends here who truly care about you. And Betty, way to be there to support one of our sisters! God bless you!
Jul 7 - 1AM (Reply to #4)
NancyM
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SAD

Not much more I can add to what everyone else has said honey, we can feel your pain and have all known it ourselves. Hope us being here helps you bear the burden a little. It will get better, but it is a hard road, but we will support you through this any way we can. ((Hugs))

Nevergoback

Jul 7 - 3AM (Reply to #5)
Scoop
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Oh sweet heart , my heart

Oh sweet heart , my heart goes out to you this morning , please know we are all here for you , youre evil scientist is evil . I am so pleased that youre friend took the steps to help you and youre therapist sounds wonderful ...Bloody match.com ,whats a horrible man , a big evil bully . Heres the silver lining about hitting rock bottom there is only one way to go now and thats up .. Sending you love today Sad1 xxxxx