I've hit my rock bottom
I've hit my rock bottom
Well it's happened and now I have to try so hard to stay NC forever.
My N left his Iphone in my car and sent me an email today saying he lost his iphone and if I see it in the car to let him know. Sure enough it was there and I looked at it. I found he has been on Match.com since the beginning of June. So beware any ladies out there on Match right now because the most evil scientist you ever want to meet is on there in the suburbs of Chicago. Anyway, a friend made me go so see my therapist. She had to call her and drag me there because I've been so beside myself all day crying and falling out of anguish and laying on the floor in tears. I went and she told me she isn't giving me any choices now because she knows i'm at a level of suicide and I have to go NC. I explained to her how I feel my legs and arms are literally getting cut off today. I don't feel I can do it but I know I have no choice now. I'm going somewhere else to stay tonight and I have to make an appt at a shelter for abused women so I can get more treatment. I have his iphone and she said the best thing to do with it is to donate to the shelter for abused women because they use these phones to give to women to call 911. It seems very fitting for me to do this since I fear returning it and talking to him again. I'm very scared and will need so much support and I'm so scared!!!! I can't stop crying and my heart is racing like crazy. I can't believe he is cheating on me once again! The pain is so intense. I need help. Thank you ladies.
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