It's been 6 months
It's been 6 months
I certainly do feel better than the severe pain I felt (it was actually physical) when I was 2-4 monts post narc.
It is STILL hard for my brain to wrap around the experience. I had a little crying episode again today... just why why why "narc" is what I was crying aloud. Why didn't he leave me alone.... all the protests I gave. He has ruined my life and the typical strength I used to use to pick myself up and keep going (you know... that strength we have during the other arduous situations in our lives)... well that part of me that used to handle THAT is missing.
I'm stuck .... like a snail without a shell. Hmmmm probably not a good analogy, however I feel SOOoo vulnerable, weak, soft, and incapable of getting out of this state of mind.
I have always known never to put all your eggs in one basket or you'll be disappointed. However, I think I am doing so when it comes to this retreat. I really hope it helps. I hope the other ladies are kind. I hope the therapists are good. I hope I gain insights and get some strength.
I leave on Thursday. I did a little packing for it tonight....feeling ambivalent about it (the retreat)..... any thoughts?
jessika
hey hon
Thank you
Jessika
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