It takes over me!!!!!

Here I am at 4am trying to get some type of relief some help some piece of mind. it takes over my everyday. Sometimes...

This started about 10 years ago. I met him through a mutual friend and we hit it off immediately. We enjoyed each other's company. Spent A LOT of time together. Neither one of us even consider a relationship because we were enjoying our friendship. Eventually, we became intimate and began having a great relationship. We were everywhere together. That didn't last long. We had soon become "home-bodies". We spent a lot of time at home (lots of sex) just hanging out. I started to wonder..."don't his friends and family wonder where I am?" Hmmmph. Oh well. This honeymoon stage was fun.

He told me all the right things like he had never loved anyone the way he loves me, no one understands him but me, he really needs me in his life and will never let me go away, I am the most beautiful woman in the world, he "needs" me, we were "meant" to be, no one will EVER love me as much as he loves me, etc....

I went for it. I just knew that this was my soul mate. Friends warnings were overlooked, etc. That was 10 years ago and since has only gotten me to love him more.

I would be typing for years if I told you ALL of the things that transpired in between so I'll just name a few...

He told me that I was jealous of his ex, several times, because she has this and dresses like this ans acts like this....

He told me that I'm a miserable person and that no matter what I could draw people in with my looks (he said he'll give me THAT) but once they find out who I really am , they'll leave just like him.

Sometimes he calls his ex in front of me and he'll talk to her so different than he talks to me and he says he knows how to treat a woman who deserves respect...(although he always calls her names behind her back).

He's called me by his ex's name SEVERAL times.

He's stolen from me.

He always accusses me of sleeping around and calls me names and tells me that I'm acting different toward him because I'm letting some guy "run up in me".

Please excuse my rant, I have NO ONE to talk to about that and you all have been so supportive!!!!!!!

When he gets me upset and I say something really mean ge always says "there's my girl! That's what I like to hear!.
He likees me angry and arguing.

If I do no contact, he comes to my home bangs on the door, etc.

He's broken furniture, cellphones, my car door, car window, picture frames, etc. no replacing anything!!!!

I feel sick. :(

thnx for supoort ladies.