It Finally happened, YAHOO

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#1 Mar 16 - 8PM
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It Finally happened, YAHOO

I have been NC for over 2 months, holding strong, and he is totally confused to say the least, you mean Cynthia has really flew the coop? Wow I thought she was crazy about me, damn she was good supply for three years, he has been using lots of excuses just to even talk to me but I just erase and NC NC NC but dont feel bad for my sociopath he is probably insidiously humping some other poor victim as I write, no SHE IS doing all the work while he lays there with his eyes CLOSED. ha ha

But there is more good news, my husband and I are making huge strides, counseling and he is even doing some of the cooking, and house chores. We almost were intimate last night for the first time in lets see .... 9 months but we are talking that slowly. More important I FINALLY broke through that good looking phase I was struggling with. My husband is not the good looking man my psychopath was, hey we all cant be Mr GQ, but I would take my not so good looking husband in a heart beat over the wealthy, good looking, charming piece of shit of a man he was. Fake, phony, fraud, swindler, destroyer of humans, love thief, oh boy dont get me going you know the list.

I feel like I am back to my own world now, hard to put it in words but I feel more content in what I have in my life just in general. The predator that lead me astray and tried to conform me to what he wanted me to be - I fought him and never gave in to his sick agenda. I am happy and content with what I have got in my life and I will never abuse it or take it for granted again. I feel like I was gone for a long long long time and boy does it feel good to be home again.

Mar 17 - 3AM
rache
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Cynthia

YOU are back where you belong.We sometimes do not know what we have until we almost lose it.Thank God you and your husband are making it work.Start dating each other again-HE was the one you chose to marry(the same guy).....the TRUE love is there.THE PHONY counterfit never was.
Mar 16 - 9PM
enoughalready
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cynthia

We have a lot in common. Except mine was 5 yrs w/ narc. and now 2 wks NC. Trying to get back after 5yrs seems so hard to do. Everything seems foreign to me as he was in my thoughts daily. This has been my biggest most foolish mistake EVER.
Mar 16 - 9PM
moving on
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that is great

It is good to know that looks aren't everything. I often get hung up on the good looks that come along with the charm and lies. It's good to know that you can be happy with someone that you might not be wanting as much but can grow to love inside and out.
Mar 16 - 9PM
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cynthia

All I can say is, WOW! Okay, actually I have more to say... When I read through your post, I felt like I was reading a novel, where you're pulling so much for the heroine for whom you are so sympathetic...that she's this really, truly good person....and life keeps throwing these vicious road-blocks in her way....and it makes you so sad and frustrated.....and you're siting on the edge of your seat thinking, life is shi**y....when is something GOOD going to happen to this girl?? ...and suddenly there's this breakthrough...and you're nearly stunned...Something unexpected happens that gives you hope and makes you do a little 'whoohoo!' because something really good happens finally to this person you've been watching all this time, and helps renew your faith that out of such misery, good things can still find their way to the surface... I am so happy you shared this ~ congratulations((hugs))
Mar 16 - 10PM (Reply to #5)
cynthia (not verified)
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HOW PROFOUND

I almost feel high, (no I am not smoking wacky stuff) ha ha I just see the truth of what he is and nothing about them holds appeal to me, looks, charm, they always have good funny come backs too I do miss that, they can be witty but always with the word masturbate of p---y in their words, they are like stand up pervert comedy acts. Because I have been out of his sphere of influence and interact mostly with normal people (I hope) I see more and more and more and more how superficial he was, my husband is the real thing, hell normal people are the real thing. I think these guys must have someone hold up an invisible Q card for them when its their turn to say their line, like it came from a script. What a nice response and maybe thats how it was, things just fell into place when I removed myself from him, I was just so scared to let him go, scared of who I would be in the end after he did so much damage to me. He will always be a disordered man, you know the motor is running but nobody behind the wheel type of guy, nothing there.
Mar 16 - 8PM
NMN
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Congratulations, I am sure

Congratulations, I am sure that its a great feeling to be happy again in your own skin!:)
Mar 17 - 8AM (Reply to #2)
Barbara (not verified)
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cynthia

just be careful, cynthia you've mentioned in the past your H is a bit of a Narc he may be doing this now to keep you reeled back in the marriage - make sure you give this a year or more before you feel you are in the clear... ~~~~~~~~~ The world is a dangerous place, not only because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do nothing. - Albert Einstein Visit My Info. Website for Abuse Victims
Mar 17 - 10AM (Reply to #3)
cynthia (not verified)
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Barbara

I know, it wont be an easy road, ya he may be playing GOOD BOY, if it doesnt work Barbara I know I can look back and at least say I gave it all I could and have no regrets. I have hope but still doubts. Thank you though I am being very very careful