irrational fear it is to much for me

I just read a blog goldie wrote about facing fears. I am riddled with irrational fear of running in to narc. I get sick to my stomach and start to cry. Or poop my pants.

I just drive all the way two towns over to go to a meeting and freaked out in the parking lot over same model car. This is just out of control. But i can not get myself in the meeting after that.

So im in a mcdonalds parking lot with a sundae crying and making this post.

What the fuck is wrong with me? I have read anything here where people are freaking out like this. I was just at my tharapist. She said i was doing ok. But i have paranoia that could choke a horse.

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