I'm sorry if this seems off-topic but...

I feel as if I gave my last two childbearing years to a N who had no intention of every having children. She had no desire for this period, even when she was of childbearing age. How could she? I know now that her malignant selfishness and narcississm would have made her the worst possible parent on the face of the earth.
But I kept thinking, maybe if she loves me enough she would agree to, well, artificial insemination and we could have what I have dreamed of my whole life, A FAMILY of my own.
My question is....(drumroll please)
Being as I will turn 45 in 6 months, would there be a snowball's chance in hell I might still be able to get pregnant?? Trying to accept that I may never be a Mom
(beyond my fur babies) has left me feeling so regretful and unfulfilled. Just wondering if some of you other gals found youself with a Narc and a ticking clock?