I'm going crazy!!! I am in my apartment pacing!!

Hi again....I'm just going to keep posting until I get through the worst part of this.....so sorry in advance for all my ramblings......I need to keep reminding myself why I am doing this. It is so amazing how our minds can go to thinking about the "good" times and wanting this to work out. Or that maybe somehow this person can change.
I know he is a sick bastard, and several people on here said he sounds like one of the worse cases...and I am crazy enough to sit here missing him and going crazy that he will be with someone else tonight.

This is soooooo messed up. Please keep reminding me how sick fucks like this don't change. He actually called earlier and left a voicemail that he just can't handle me anymore, my bad attitude, my craziness, etc, etc and he was moving on with another woman tonight. So he was basically breaking up with me and telling me not to call anymore.
I didn't respond and he has not called back.

I just feel sick and all alone right now.....I'm beyond upset. When does it even start to get a little easier???
Joy