I'm at 5 days TOTAL NC.....

Keep it up girl!

"I feel so bad that I put her first in my life....my family, my husband, my job and me. Hopefully some day I can get to a place where I can forgive myself for that.." ~KG Me too! I was willing to put Ass Clown Brent ahead of everyone else including my grandchildren and children. He wasn't worth it obviously. I still have a few residual feelings for him, but I think I have my priorities right now. I intend to keep it that way. I was warned and I didn't listen. My family will come first in my future. I will trust their opinions on my choices. I'm happy to say that as I go thru my psychology books on narcissism, a lot of things they talk about I no longer remember, or care to or just don't know at all. This is good I think that my mind is gradually deleting memories of him. I like that. I don't mind because he doesn't matter! Hell Yeah! My family warned me about Ass Clown Brent - that he was weird and not right in the head. So true, and I had to learn my lessons the hard way. But then women in love are easy prey, and narcs like Brent take advantage of that fact. I hate that he's inflicting further damage on other innocent trusting women, but that's how snakes like Brent survive. I have determined that there will be better men (already has been!) in my life than Ass Clown Brent in my life. I am hopeful and optimistic. Hang in there. It will get better!

Keep it going! Don't fall of the turnip truck! You have a long road ahead of you! Your thoughts are positive and strong, say goodbye to Narcville! Hunter

Good for you! it's hard in the start so you should really give yourself some props for having strong will!! clarity comes with time and NC!

This is a remarkable breakthrough, KG! Seriously. I so enjoyed reading this, and it can benefit us all. And show us that true NC DOES WORK. How true too, that you say she loved what you did for her, not you. THAT'S IT! Thanks for putting it like that. I didn't know how to articulate all that, but that is it. I remember him telling me about all his ex's...gf's and wives along the way, who did this or that. How he ''likes when a woman does this or that...or says this or that.'' It wasn't me saying it. He just views women as commodities. Not, as individuals. It's like...''here's what I like, and let's see if she will oblige.'' haha You know? Yuck. I thought back then, those were glaring red flags. I also like how you admit that it can be hard to not suspect others of being manipulative. The whole situation renders us a bit suspicious of the innocent. But, one day at a time. You are doing the hard work...I'm so happy for and proud of you!!!