From Ice Cold Indifference... To Frantic Hoovering

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#1 Apr 22 - 4PM
deecbee
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From Ice Cold Indifference... To Frantic Hoovering

What the heck happened here?

To keep the back story brief, the Narcissist & I were on & off for 12 years. His last D&D was especially hurtful in that he never broke it off with me. He just stopped speaking to me and started dating another woman. The shock of it nearly destroyed my life and it wasn't until I found this forum that I fell onto steady ground and took some control of the situation.

He had been completely ignoring for about 2 months (aside from a few random, purposefully hurtful remarks). The other day, I sent him a Facebook message to arrange to get a few important things back that are over at his place. It had to be done, but unfortunately it opened up a dialogue between us again. He made a few mean comments about my profile pictures, I shot back with a few mean comments about his mental issues, we went back and forth for a while until I let loose and basically told him everything I knew about narcissism and how closely he fit the bill, and how I KNOW that he knows that he's pathologically ill.

After I exposed him and told him I was moving forward with my life, he never directly responded to the issue, but he suddenly started being "nice" and would send me random, conversational text messages as if nothing had ever happened- when weeks before, he refused to acknowledge my existence! He has never texted me like this before, not even during our relationship! He'll send 4 consecutive texts a minute, talking about concerts he wants to go to, asking for my music recommendations, commenting on current events, asking me to check my email bc he wants to show me a picture of his tattoo... ("it's a cool tattoo, isn't it???" he even asked). He even emailed me a picture of his beard as if I haven't seen it before, or as if it's even something I'd care about!

Before, I would've been sucked right back in and thought, "Aww, he's interested in me again. He really wants to talk to me!" But now I see right through it and that it's just a selfish, pathetic attempt at getting someone's approval. I'm cringing for him.

Finally, the messages were just too much and I told him we really couldn't be doing the text thing and that I need to move on. I wished him well and left it there. His response?

"Alright, but sidenote: What do you think about so-and-so. Is he worth seeing live?"

I reiterated my point once again, and then he responds with a random comment about how two artists that he wants to see are playing on the same night. I haven't responded, and won't.

What the heck?? I'm so confused! My messages were extremely serious, I don't know whether to laugh or be angry that he completely ignored them and insisted on talking about concerts instead. Is this a narcissistic thing? Completely blocking out what the other person is saying and carrying on a completely unrelated conversation? What gives, how can anyone be that ridiculous? I have a high tolerance for weird stuff, but this is just too bizarre even for me.

Apr 23 - 7AM
prettypeeved
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This is exactly the sort of

This is exactly the sort of thing I've got happening, only it's online instead. Since he's realised I've turned my back on him he just can't leave me alone. As a result, there's now a load of one-sided online conversations on a website we both use. He just happily (or unhappily) banters away with me, ignoring the fact that he never gets any response. It's bizarre.
Apr 23 - 11AM (Reply to #10)
deecbee
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Lol, it's crazy isn't it?!

Lol, it's crazy isn't it?! The N was also basically having conversations with himself through text. And you know if you were to start responding, he'd wait until the prime opportunity and then BAM. Stop responding and leave you on a string.
Apr 23 - 11AM (Reply to #11)
prettypeeved
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Exactly. I know if I unblock

Exactly. I know if I unblock him, within a handful of days, maybe weeks, maybe even months he'll suddenly yank the rug out from under me.
Apr 23 - 3PM (Reply to #12)
Monica
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Yep....blocking is the wall around us that keeps us safe

Keep those blocks UP! Blocks sometimes run out so you have to keep up on that and check on them now and again to make sure they are still in place. In blocking them we don't even have to face any temptation to take them back or engage with them or hear their lies. Silence protects us from hurt and further anger and frustration and from taking that chance that they will lure us back in. If they can't get to us in any way it is as if they no loner exist for us. We have those memories that tug at us....those rare good times that creep into our heads and hearts and start making us sad and miss them. But I always squash those memories with remembering how he made me feel (never good enough, humiliated, publicly embarrassed, used, abused) and how I meant nothing to him at all. Blocking is the only way to heal. Block, unfriend, no giving into curiousity by checking out their online hangouts or pages. In our hearts and in our minds, they must be "dead" to us in order for us to heal and move on and be truly happy again.
Apr 23 - 5PM (Reply to #13)
deecbee
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"Silence protects us from

"Silence protects us from hurt." Yes! It does!!! Can you even think of the last time silence was broken only for something good to come of it? I can't! As much as I hate keeping my mouth shut sometimes, silence really does keep us out of harms way with them.
Apr 23 - 2AM
dudette
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this is about control

If he can keep you talking, you go back on your word and re-invest in the relationship, even just in a communication sense...this is to show you that you do not have the willpower to go through with it. he clearly does not take you seriously. This is only a way to control you. When you are fully re-engaged, he will D and D you again, brutally....
Apr 23 - 12PM (Reply to #7)
deecbee
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Is it the luring that they

Is it the luring that they enjoy, or is it the discarding?
Apr 23 - 12PM (Reply to #8)
Used
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deecbee

both, they like both its the bit in the middle they get bored with, they live to win so a challange keeps them going, thats why they drop you with such ease b/c they didnt care about you in the first place they care on about the chasexx
Apr 23 - 7AM (Reply to #6)
deecbee
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Yep, I think youre right.

Yep, I think youre right. It's all about control and getting the upper-hand again. I wont let him take the power back. No response from me, ever.
Apr 22 - 4PM
agnesmurphy17
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It's All About Him

He doesn't hear a word you say. He may want to lure you back after reading the 'narcissist' riot act. but that was to D&D you again sometime to get in the last word. Now, did you actually get whatever back it was you needed? Or will contact have to be initiated again?
Apr 23 - 7AM (Reply to #2)
deecbee
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I still havent gotten it

I still havent gotten it back. And youre right,I realized he is totally content to not talk to me as long as HE did the walking away- if it's the other way around, he'll do the song and dance so he can be the one to toss me away. I dont even want my stuff back- I do NOT want to give him the satisfaction of another d&d. I would much rather have him squirm over the fact that in the end, I walked away from HIM.
Apr 23 - 8AM (Reply to #3)
Redhead1
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I think the reason we

I think the reason we question what they are doing is because-they are game players. If you are not a game player, you have trouble understanding them. When it comes to Narcs, I have learn to think like a kid playing games to get my way. They have no reasoning skills, don't understand cause-effect. The only person in the picture is them. I can remember my kids doing this kinda stuff when they were young. So I guess they are stuck in a childs frame of mind. Emotionally stunted.
Apr 23 - 11AM (Reply to #4)
deecbee
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You're right, I found myself

You're right, I found myself strategizing and trying to predict responses and preparing for my next retort with him... not a normal flow of conversation, but a game! Talking with him now is so much different now that I know what he is and how he works. Ordinarily I'd be so frustrated. Now, I just shake my head, laugh a little, and go on with my day.