I wish I paid more attention the red flags in the beginning...
I wish I paid more attention the red flags in the beginning...
Just thinking about some of the things he did gets me so angry not only at him, but myself as well. Why was I so naive to take all the bullshit?
I hadn't had anyone express interest in me like that, I thought he genuinely liked me in the beginning. When I went away on a trip for a few days I left him a sweet message telling him I missed him and I never got a response at all....just that he was so busy. Then when he went away he stopped talking to me for a couple of days and I was a bit worried. I posted a status on facebook with a sad face and one of my friends asked what was wrong. He commented on it saying "it's because she hasn't heard from me." I mean I hadn't even mentioned anything pertaining to that at all. It's like he knew what he was doing.
Then I remember in the beginning we had a conversation (mostly him doing the talking as always) how he went to therapy for something a long time ago ( i was majoring in psychology at the time so i guess that's how the topic came up) he went on to tell me how it was so stupid and how he yelled at his therapist because he didn't agree with anything and never came back. I mean how could I be so naive??? I ended up losing my virginity to him and I wanted to! I thought he really liked me and wanted to be with me. It's like he knew that I wanted a relationship and wouldn't commit to me and it made me feel like there was something wrong with me and my personality as he would put it later. I remember he didn't even really ask he kind of said "we're going to do everything this time" and I went along with it because I really liked him. I felt ready. Now it's just remorse. He seemed to be sweet, but when I went home I felt bad. It's like alll he wanted me for was to get me to have sex with him and that was his goal. I still don't know if he's just an ass or what..
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The Red Flags Are TOO Unbelievable to Believe