I will celebrate 18 months NC tomorrow

Hello everyone.
Haven't posted in a very long time and have taken some breaks from reading but for the most part I still check in daily.
18 months ago tomorrow I got the call my test was positive...he had given me an STD. He denied it(asked who I had been with-total projection). I had kicked him out a week prior because I had found out once again he had cheated and sent him packing back to mommy & daddy 600 miles away.
That call was my breaking point. I said no more! I was done with his lieing, cheating, emotional abusing no good ass. And I have stuck to it!
The first few days, weeks, months were hell. The gut wrenching pain, the disbelief, the trying to figure out what the hell happened. And how I could have lowered myself to who I had beome.
Finding this site and the wisdom, understanding, and advise saved me. I know I wouldn't be where I am today without all of you. So I thank all of you with all of my heart.
I have no desire to see him or talk to him or have him as any part of my life. He disgusts me to the very core. I have not cried over him in a very long time. I still have times when I want to beat the hell out of him! And I still have times when more than anything I want him to pay for who he is and have everyone see what a liar and user he is.
Some are seeing that. Some never will.
We had been together thru many D&Ds for 10 years. And it's true each one gets worse. They will never change. They can't. They get worse. Knowing this has helped me not wanting to contact him. I have no desire to talk to someone who is just full of shit and only cares about himself. And I know he thinks someday I will want to be friends. WHEN HELL FREEZES OVER!!! And not even then.
I've done so much soul searching. I was and still am a very empathetic caring woman. I just know I won't ever be as vulnerable and trusting as I was. And that's ok. I can be that way without being a hardass...unless needed :-). But I am watching out for myself first. I had never done that. It feels good!
NC IS THE ONLY WAY TO HEAL! It helps you set back and look at what was REALLY going on and helps you to see we deserve so much more.
He is with the skank he cheated with but he treats her like shit. He's using her as he used me. They only keep someone for themselves and what they get out of it. They don't care about anyone but themselves! THAT IS THE TRUTH!
THEIR LIFE IS ALL FAKE!!
In 2 months I am moving to be with my daughter. She lives in the same small town. It's the town he grew up in & I lived in for 11 yrs. I have many many friends there. I have contemplated this for a year but just couldn't do it. I was petrified I would see him and not be strong enough. Not that I wanted to be with him but to be able to ignore him. I felt like I would be going back to his territory and would have to watch my every move. Those feelings kept me away from a daughter who needs me. One day I sat on my couch and cried like a baby and said Fuck You! You will NOT keep me from her. So get the hell out of my way because I'm coming back! And I realized when he finally finds that out it will scare the shit out of him and I laughed my ass off!!
I know this is long but I promise it does get better and we will heal. We won't ever be the same but that's a good thing. We will be stronger and even more confident. Believe
in NC NC NC NC!

I don't know who the authors are so hope it's ok that I post them but I have kept these 2 sayings very close to me and their words have given me strength.

It is by moving on we defeat our abuser, mimimizing him & his importance in our life!
AND
I can be grateful for being shown what I don't want, that I deserve love and it will come into my life.

Love to all of you