I thought we bonded :(
I thought we bonded :(
I been so sad lately, crying at the drop of a hat. Why does it seem to be getting harder?? I almost broke NC tonight, and emailed him..but I had to sit on my hands literally.
I feel so sad, because I was thinking about how I believed we bonded in the 8 years of knowing each other. We always shared childhood traumas together, and I felt we were just two abused souls that loved each other, and was saving each other with the love we never recieved as children. He knew all my secrets, and I knew some of his. He acted like he trusted me, and I trusted him. He would tell me just how horrible his mom was to him as a child, and I told him how terrible my dad was. For some odd reason, he said I reminded him of his mom, and he reminded me of my dad. We were indeed doing the macabre dance, of wounded souls.
But, he all of sudden the last time I spoke to him, he defended his mother, and said his childhood wasnt the reason he was the way he was. When I was mentioning he may be NPD, he denied it.. and said his mother is a great mom. I was floored, did he just get amnesia?
Why was he defending her now?
I wasnt being good supply anymore, so i guess when you do that they change their stories??? It left me hurt and confused.
And the most painful part, is to try and believe we never had a bond.
These thoughts are killing me inside, I wish I had answers, but I know I will NEVER get them from him.
Thoughts?
SG
Savegaia
SG
Dearest Blueworld :)
Cha Ching Savegaia!!!
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Happy Xmas to me !! ;)
They only "appear to bond" to suck you in
I cant stop reading this!
Damn Goldie!! :)
goldie
Wow, Goldie! This is so outstanding
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Agreed!
layla
Sista's, add my voice...
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savegaia
Hey SG, instead of trying to
Thank you everyone ..
I told you this guy has MAJOR
Lol hunter!
After you read it I'd love to
Hunter..I
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