I sent him a text and have called

I sent him a text telling him that I was sorry for the way I spoke to him and followed up with a phone call and didn't get a response. This time I ended it and was mean to him, not the other way around. Some of you have asked me great questions like what will it take and when will I choose me and what inside me keeps me obsessed. Self esteem self loating and self centered fear. I'm praying to bless free and release him nd not reachin out anymore. It s as though I need this guy to tell me I'm okay. Because I'm not able to do it on my own or have complete resistance to telling myself I'm okay and sitting in the uncomfortableness that is me. One of the last times we didn't talk for over a year and a half. I hoover not him. He's done and his silence says just that

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