THIS I PROMISE, THERE IS LIFE AFTER A NARC, AND IT IS A BEAUTIFUL ONE

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#1 Jun 3 - 3AM
jaycee
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THIS I PROMISE, THERE IS LIFE AFTER A NARC, AND IT IS A BEAUTIFUL ONE

MOST OF YOU WHO HAVE READ MY POSTS ARE PROBABLY GOING TO BE SHOCKED, BUT I AM HERE, EVEN AFTER BEING COMPLETELY HEARTBROKEN AND OBESSESS WITH MY EX, YES, FINALLY EX, HN, TO TELL YOU, THERE IS LIFE AFTER A NARC, AND A BEAUTIFUL LIFE, CLEAR AND FREE OF ANY TWISTED AND SICK MIND FUCKING AND ABUSE. THE FOG HAS LIFTED FOR ME, I CAN SEE CLEARLY NOW, IM FREE OF THE NARC, AFTER TWENTY SIX YEARS, AND I FOUND THAT THERE IS A BEAUTIFUL LIFE BECAUSE HE IS NO LONGER IN MINE, I SKIPPED OVER THE NC PART, SAW THERE IS NO NEED TO LOOK AT HIM EXCEPT FOR WITH HIS MASK ON, AND TO KNOW WHEN HE IS PLAYING THE VICTIM I SHOULD SHOVE AN OSCAR UP HIS AS BECAUSE ITS ONLY AND ACT, AND BETTER YET, I HAVE REALIZED THE OW, DID ME A GREAT FAVOR, AND THAT NOW, HE IS HER PROBLEM. I CANT BELIEVE IT MYSELF, I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NOT AN OUNCE OF LOVE OR FEAR FOR THE MAN WHO TORMENTED ME FOR THIS LONG. I DONT LOVE HIM, DONT MISS HIM, DONT PINE FOR HIM, COULD CARE LESS WHERE HE IS, WHO HE IS WITH, AND WHAT THEY ARE DOING, BECAUSE YOU SEE, I FOUND THERE IS LIFE AFTER SEEING WHAT A NARC CAN TRULY DO TO SOMEONE ELSE. I BELIEVE MORE THAN ANYTHING, I CRAWLED OUT OF HELL ON MY HANDS AND KNEES AND AT THE TOP I FOUND SUNLIGHT AND BELIEVE OR NOT, A LIFE THAT IS SO WONDERFUL AND SUCH A GREAT LEARNING EXPERIENCE, THAT SOMEDAYS I HAVE TO PINCH MYSELF AND PRAY IM STILL HERE. I SUFFERED FOR SO LONG, I HURT SO BAD EMOTIONALLY THAT MY PHYSICAL BODY HAD TRUE PAIN, AND NOW, I FEEL NOTHING FOR MY EX HN HES VERMIN, SCUM AND TO BE HONEST, I DONT FEEL A THING WHEN I SEE HIM, NOTHING, I FEEL NOTHING, IM SO INDIFFERENT TO HIM, ITS ALMOST LIKE WALKING PAST A STRANGER IN THE GROCERY STORE. I DONT KNOW HOW THIS HAPPENED, AND MAYBE ITS BECAUSE I WAS SAVED, SAVED IN MORE WAYS THAN ANY HUMAN BEING CAN BE SAVED, BUT I DO KNOW WHEN YOUR EYES ARE OPENED AND THE FOG IS LIFTED, THERE TRULY IS A LIFE WAITING, I HAVENT BEEN THIS HAPPY OR FELT THIS NORMAL SINCE I MET THE EX HN AT THE AGE OF TWENTY, MY LIFE HAS BEEN A COMPLETE NIGHTMARE, AND WHO KNOWS AND WHO CARES WHY I STAYED, ALL I KNOW IS IM OUT AND BOY DOES IT FEEL GOOD....I SLEEP TIGHT AT NIGHT, I CAN FUNCTION DURING THE DAY AND THE WORLD LOOKS LIKE A BETTER PLACE. I NO LONGER HOLD MY HEAD DOWN IN SHAME, I WALK AROUND KNOWING I DESERVE THE BEST, AND GUESS WHAT I HAVE IT, ITS A LIFE WITHOUT THE NARC.....AND TRUST ME, IF JAYCEE CAN DO IT, ANYONE CAN, BELIEVE ME THERE IS A LIFE AFTER THE NARC, AND CAN I TELL YOU ALL ITS BEAUTIFUL SIMPLY BEAUTIFUL........XOXO JAYCEE

Jun 17 - 12PM
fooled no longer
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I applaud you, This has been

I applaud you, This has been a hard journey and survivors have survived under huge pressure like diamonds. I see youve become a diamond. I will be a better person from this I know that and thankyou for coming back and telling us. very valuable for those newbies and us who like me are in the first year of discovery. xx
Jun 17 - 11AM
jen79
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jaycee

thats the greatest news I ever heard!!!! I am so happy for you, I remember the nightmare you went through, gosh you sound so great now!!! God has listen to your prayers. Big big love and hugs to you!!!!
Jun 17 - 7AM
spinning
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jaycee,

I agree! Great things await once we reject the chaos and disorder; dismiss the illusion and let go! I am so happy for you. Big hugs and love from (TOTALLY NOT) spinning. NEVER AGAIN!!!

spinning

Jun 5 - 1PM
jaycee
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I never imagined this kind of happiness

I never imagined this kind of happiness, its amazing, i feel like my old self again, i feel twenty years old, and loving life like ive never loved it before.........i dont miss the narc, dont care about the narc, dont care what he does or doesnt do, I thank God everyday for giving me the strength to walk away and begin my beautiful life, and it gets more beautiful with each passing day.......im loving it......wish the same for all of you......never thought id get here, it took me a lifetime.........xoxo jaycee

Jaycee

Jun 17 - 8AM (Reply to #13)
blessingindisguise
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Jaycee

Pass along your good luck this way! I'm so ready for real life again and a real relationship. I'm so happy for you and I had a feeling that as low as you were, life was going to turn around for you in a BIG way! You go girl!
Jun 5 - 2PM (Reply to #11)
Susan32
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Congratulations!

It's amazing to see such a breakthrough. You're beginning the healing process, slowly but surely... and thank goodness you're on the path to healing. If you're loving life again, it means you're being YOU again. Free at last, free at last!
Jun 17 - 7AM (Reply to #12)
jaycee
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thanks for the reply/thinking of all of you everyday

i have not been on in a while but think of all of you every single day. I miss all of you and want you to know i have never been happier in all my life. my friend/soulmate has turned out to be the most wonderful human being ive ever had the pleasure of loving, with the exception of my children. i never believed i would be well and have a life again after being with a narc for twenty six years. trust me, if you are down and struggling, i promise there is life and love after a narc, and better than that, there is wellness of mind, body and soul..........wishing all of you the best..xoxo jaycee

Jaycee

Jun 5 - 6AM
onthebrink
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Life after Narc

I left him last August after 7 years of abuse. There were the numerous other women, complete distortions of reality, talking bad about me to everyone. THE GOOD NEWS: I ran into him at the store with his new woman, the one he was cheating on me with, in the very beginning, and they both looked ridiculous. Once the fog lifts, they look completely unattractive (their true selves shining through). I find myself realizing I have not thought about him all day and when I do it's thank goodness I am away from the evil body snatcher that he is. LADIES YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS! It feels so good to own your life again.
Jun 3 - 10AM
jaycee
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GIRLS I AM TRULY AND UTTERLY HAPPY

I AM MORE THAN EVER TRULY AND UTTERLY HAPPY, I CANT BELIEVE I WASTED TWENTY SIX YEARS OF MY LIFE ON A SOCIOPATH, AND NOW I KNOW WHAT IT IS TO HAVE A REAL LIFE, ID DO IT AGAIN, JUST TO FIND THIS HAPPINESS......WISHING EVERYONE HERE THE SAME, I NEEDED THIS SITE IT REALLY HELPED AND NOW IM GLAD TO SAY THE RESULTS ARE AMAZING.....

Jaycee

Jun 3 - 10AM
ewa
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I am really happy for you

I am really happy for you Jaycee. I feel exactly the same like you :). It takes long time to get over it, but it is possible! Girls do not give up, there is wonderful psychofree life waiting for you!!!
Jun 3 - 9AM
Happy1
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jaycee

Thank you Jaycee! It's so good to hear that there's happiness after narc and we do get to a point where we truly don't care about them anymore. You rock!
Jun 3 - 8AM
Littleone
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This has got go be my

This has got go be my favorite post on this whole site. Thankyou Jaycee and well done on your new found happiness, you are truly an inspiration. The way your feeling is what I'm striving for, i know it's there but feels out of reach just yet. How long was your recovery?
Jun 3 - 9AM (Reply to #2)
jaycee
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LITTLE ONE, A LONG TIME, BUT WORTH THIS BEAUTIFUL LIFE

I WOULD GO THROUGH HELL AGAIN, JUST TO BE HERE WHERE I AM NOW, IT TOOK A LONG TIME, ACTUALLY TWENTY SIX YEARS OF D AND D, TOTAL DISRESPECT, TOTAL MINDFUCK, YOU NAME IT, BUT GUESS WHAT THERE IS A BEAUTIFUL LIFE WAITING, JUST LET GO, I PROMISE YOU WILL FIND IT, HE DOESNT DESERVE YOU, NOT ONE BIT, WHEN YOU REALIZE THAT, YOU WILL BE OK.... BETTER THAN OK, YOU WILL BE HAPPY, A WORD I COULDNT EVEN SPELL WHEN I WAS MARRIED TO THE NARC.........BE WELL, LET GO, AND TRUST ME, HAPPINESS IS WAITING.......XOXOXO JAYCEE

Jaycee

Jun 3 - 10AM (Reply to #5)
terri
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just let go

my new mantra - hope it works!!

Believe in yourself!
Terri

Jun 3 - 9AM (Reply to #3)
Used
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jaycee

jaycee.. omg you sound so good so grounded and so together, and you are right there is a good and beautiful life after narcs....but i have to say this board so helped me and still does....it warms me to hear how great you sound and are.......GOOD FOR YOUXXXXXXX
Jun 4 - 10PM (Reply to #4)
Redhead1
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Go Jaycee!!! Glad to hear you

Go Jaycee!!! Glad to hear you sounding so happy. You deserve it.