I just had a disturbing realization.
I just had a disturbing realization.
I feel hatred for the N, but there is some part of me that feels like I will also always "love" him. I just thought about this a few minutes ago....i know all the reasons for the hatred I feel, but when I asked myself what it is that I love about him....and even what I loved about him before his mask came off.....there is really nothing....i mean if someone asked me why I loved him like I did, I have no reason. He certainly wasn't loving, giving, empathetic, nurturing or had any qualities that would normally draw a person to love him. I can only come up with a couple of reasons, #1. He was the sexiest man alive to me (which is nothing but lust),#2.. I felt good/had fun when I was with him. This makes zero sense, and what does this say about how messed up I am? Am I this shallow??? I have feelings of pity for him because of his bad childhood and the fact that he is always just barely getting by financially....did I confuse pity with love? How can I feel love for a person who has nothing about him to love?when I spent time with him I felt special that he would be choosing me to spend time with, maybe thats it? this is a puzzle to me.
What is love?
I'm beginning to think that
Totally get this; I could have written it
Dont kid yourself he provided
well said, Hunter
Welcome to the Wendy`s Club,
green
Yeah..lost atracts lost,
what is love
victim-no-more
What hooked you in the beginning?
You bring up a good point,
Victim-no-more, I could say
I can relate. When my
Nan
Oh yes, my therapist asked me