I have to get over this feeling of it being personal
I have to get over this feeling of it being personal
I keep having thoughts that my exN treated me so badly because he wanted to and because he felt he could. I know in my head it's not personal, that he's disordered and has so many emotional issues and problems that it wasn't me, it's how he operates, but I still can't help but feel that he did it to me because he disliked me, had no respect for me, I wasn't good enough. When someone you love and care about... and someone you want to feel the same way about you treats you so poorly it really cuts to the bone and ruins your self esteem. And I keep thinking he did it to ME, not his previous girlfriend, not his new girlfriend, only me. I need to keep reminding himself that he's not going to change and that he treats each girlfriend the same, but its hard not to take it personally. Especially since I don't know what's going on in his new relationship... and I'm assuming he's treating her well.
My exN and I have been broken up 6 months yesterday, and I also just had the closing last week on my condo where I spent my relationship with my exN so I think I'm feeling out of sorts this week and really missing him... especially since I had so many memories in that condo and it's like there's a chapter closing with the sale of the condo and a connection to him that's now gone. But, I know it's a good thing to have sold it and being away from all those memories is another step in my healing and recovery. I now need to delete his voice mail and text messages... I guess a step at a time. :)
This forum has been a godsend... I appreciate all the love and support.
Hugs
It feels personal, doesn't
Safyre99
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Onwithmylife
the thing is you can either
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Thanks Happy!
That's why the final D&D started...
Isn't it strange
mine started D&D over something else - really weird!
I have just recently shifted
I know what you mean...
To saf and all the commentors,
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