I have a dilemma
I have a dilemma
I have been invited to an art exhibition which the art student I supported for 4 years is taking part in. He has a physical disability and mental health issues which is the reason I was employed to help him achieve his degree in Fine Arts. He has done so well and is now in his final year of his degree, something he has achieved against all the odds. The N is also a student on the same course and in the same year. It is because of what the N did to me that I had to leave my job, abandoning my student, though he has got a new support worker now. I felt very bad about this and have maintained contact with my student (outside of college), offering him encouragement whenever I can. My student really wants me to be there on Wednesday to see his work but I don't feel it would be wise as I would be forced to see N (who I have only seen once for 30 minutes in the last 8 months). I have been feeling so much better in the last few weeks, I don't want to put a spanner in the works and end up back at square one again. I would like to think that he no longer has the power to hurt me but I know this isn't quite true yet. It sounds crazy but I have this curiosity to see how it would affect me, to find out if I've made any progress in my recovery. I don't want my student to feel let down by me in any way so I would have to make up some excuse as to why I couldn't go and hope it doesn't upset him. As I'm writing this, I guess I'm answering my own question - don't go! Writing has been so instrumental in getting thoughts and feelings out of my system - and having this safe place to do it, is so great. I am doing the right thing, aren't I?
I would recommend not going.
Follow your gut
ah, I'm sorry because this is