I had a good cry a few days ago!!!!

I think I have made a small brake through! I was having a reasonably good week last week then I invited some friends round for a bottle or two of wine. After a fair few glasses we was listening to some music one of our old songs came on and the lyrics felt like they was cuttin me in two. I kept myself composed and later went to bed. When I awoke the next day I felt like I was bursting with pain and hurt and felt so low. And then later on I just laid on my bed and cried for ages. I still don't think the rawness of the pain is fully through I feel it's a mere crack in the exterior I've built around my heart but I do feel like I've got some acceptance from this as he doesn't seem to be occupying my thoughts every minute o the day now. The heartache wasn't very nice and I was very out of it for a few days after lilt my head was a bit cloudy but then became clearer and it feels like a positive step closer. I've had a couple of little cries since last sept but nothing that reflects the true pain I suffered. As depressing as it sounds and as painful as it is I'd rather be laid on the bed sobbing that constantly walking around with the lost sense of stuckness with grey clouds hanging over me. Do you think crying is a sign of accepting that things can't ever be changed and that we have to look after our own little hearts?? Xoxoxo