I F ***ed Up!

I'm just venting here so save your tomato throwing til I finish! First of all, let me say that I have court on Thursday with the narc. Every time we go to court, I tell him when and what time and he shows up. (He's never been legally served cos he has no address or permanent place of employment to get served.) I assured my lawyer that he would show cos he always does so she said she would have him served at the court house when he shows up. Well, I have a huge feeling he's not going to show up this time. I left him a voice mail and a text stating the time and place. He won't acknowledge neither. I called him to tell him that dd was missing him and wanted to talk to him and he still didn't respond. Of course, I had to go postal and called him several more times and have been for the past two days. My last message was that dd was really wanting to talk to him and to please call her tonite. (She has been crying for him every single day!)I said that this would be the last time I would be contacting him and if he didn't call her by this evening, I would take that as a hint and I would not try to reach him anymore...well, the fucker did not call! Right before bedtime, here goes dd, crying that she can't live without seeing her dad and can't I TELL THE JUDGE TO MAKE HIM SEE HER?! That sorry MF! I freaking hate him. I wanted to call him and cuss him out or text him and tell him that next time when he's down and feeling "sorry for himself and thinking he's a loser", that he needs to really believe it cos that's exactly what he is! He is the biggest piece of shit ever!!! I know why he's not answering his calls...it's cos he doesn't want me to mention to him about court! He's behind on child support and probably figures there's a good chance he'll get locked up! There is nothing I would like better than for that MF to fall off the face of the earth but that's not gonna happen! I know dd has everything she needs with me and my husband but she is always going to wonder why her own father couldn't love her! Every time I see one of those shows with people looking for their loved ones, it's always the same story. Even if they had good stepparents or adoptive parents, they always want to know why their biological parents didn't want them! They say that "something is missing in their lives". How is she going to feel when she realizes that her father didn't and couldn't love her??? Oh my gosh, that is going to devastate her! I know the love and pain that she feels for him, I felt it too, but he is sooo not worth her love. I hate him and I look forward to the day he gets what he deserves. I will be shocked if he does show for court but if he doesn't...what should be my next move???