I kinda had the feeling when I was with my ex (deep down), that if I married him I would eventually end up....not around anymore. I dont know what it was exactly and I still dont know if Im being overdramatic or not. I really dont know.
Sometimes when we fought, even though he remained composed and was at most showing annoyance...I just felt this coldness from him that actually frightened me. I remember once we were arguing at night and he got up to go to the bathroom and I was actually scared waiting for him to come back.
He was never physically abusive and was rarely verbally abusive. It was all very covert. I just had this feeling...I dont know. Maybe I was just involving myself in dramatic fantasies (cant think of a better word than fantasy, obviously would never want that to happen).
Did anyone else feel this way?
I hope this is not too grim or too scary to be posting, I dont want to frighten anyone or any newbies. If this is not okay to post mods feel free to delete!