I caused my own D&D

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#1 Dec 9 - 9PM
Brandnewme
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I caused my own D&D

I thought about all the times that the Narc gave me the ST. Each and every time it was because I tried to hold him accountable for his actions, confront him with his true self, make him commit to me, or call him on a lie. If I never did these things he was on perfect Narc behavior. After being with these disordered people over an extended period of time, it's safe to say that we know what pushes their buttons. Right? Subconsciously I realized that every time I became tired of the Narc, I would do one of the things I knew he didn't like and at that moment I didn't care about the repercussions I just needed him to get away from me. It took about 5 times of ST for me to realize that no matter what I said to him, at some point usually a month or less he would always come back. However, the ST didn't hurt me any less I still missed him terribly. I had to weigh the pain of missing him versus the pain of being with him and being mistreated and ignored and now I realize that ST or not the treatment from him was still the same.

I thought about this today because I wonder if we have developed unconscious coping mechanisms to deal with these sick and disordered people. I found that I escaped into my own created fantasy and false self in order to be accommodating to him and when I couldn't take it anymore I gave myself a break.

Dec 10 - 5AM
BlindNoMore
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Same thing with mine. Yes,

Dec 9 - 10PM
Willow
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His disorder caused your

Dec 10 - 11AM (Reply to #5)
Abigail
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Thanks for the reminder!

Dec 10 - 5PM (Reply to #6)
Willow
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Better late than never is

Dec 9 - 10PM
gemofagirl
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I hear you...I am full on

Dec 10 - 7AM (Reply to #3)
ItsFinallytime
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I like that too "the great

Dec 10 - 7AM (Reply to #2)
Brandnewme
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I like that..