I can't get happy

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#1 Dec 25 - 11AM
evonjohn
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I can't get happy

Anxiety, depression, tears, anger, hate. It's x-mas and this is what I am feeling today. I am numb, and it's x-mas. I hate the fact that my son was with my ex and his insta-bride yesterday. I am haunted by the good times and laughter they had. I can't get this feeling out of my head. I hate him so much. I hate him for everything that he has done, and I don't know how to let it go. I hate that my child has a stepmom. I hate him so much. I can't get happy. Why did I let myself get involved and stay with such an asshole. Why do I feel destroyed. I am physically sick and have a huge pit in my stomach and a migraine.
I know it's the first x-mas like this. Who wakes up one day and says - yeah, ok, ex got married, and has a new life, and I am nothing.

Dec 25 - 6PM
Brit
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you see these people are fakers too

Dec 25 - 5PM
bgirl
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So sorry for your pain...

Dec 25 - 12PM
unbreakable
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Yeah he has a 'new' life- a

Dec 25 - 12PM (Reply to #6)
evonjohn
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You know what's crazy. I was

Dec 25 - 12PM
allthewisernow
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Hi evonjohn, I know how you

Dec 25 - 6PM (Reply to #4)
moxie pepper
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That's the hardest part

Dec 25 - 12PM (Reply to #2)
evonjohn
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Seriously though, what in

Dec 25 - 4PM (Reply to #3)
Skeeterina71
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Evonjohn