I am letting go
I am letting go
I am embarrassed to share all of the details but it is time to let go, way past time.
Back and forth texting, mostly me pouring out my soul in an effort to get him to see how it is better for me to not have him in my life.
He agrees to leave me alone and I go to bed for another sleepless night.
I text him today to see if we can meet so I can repay the money he gave me a couple weeks ago.
No go, more back and forth texting.
I text that it is never going to be the relationship that either of us want, it's time to be done completely with no chance for friendship.
That was a lie. I told him that maybe we could pick up our friendship at some other time and place. Wished him well, happiness and all that.
He texts me that he will call me in a couple weeks if that's ok.
I fire off a nasty text that it is absolutely not ok, that he does not get to dictate when we do and don't talk, that it is always all about him and everything has to be his way. Told him he was an extremely selfish man and that I hate myself that I care so much because he has nobody to talk to.
He sends back "ok".
Now I am really pissed and I call. He flies into a rage about how he's had enough of all of it and that he doesn't even know if he will want to call me in a couple weeks.
I just couldn't leave it alone last night, now I look like the crazy woman and end up crying on the phone.
And to top it off, he dismisses the smiley face incident as nothing and trivial.
I am stupid. I didn't want him to come back. I did my part and didn't contact him, he was the one who contacted me. And now I have a migraine and I feel like a piece of shit again.
I asked him why the hell he even called me, he said he just wanted someone to talk to.
I have explained over and over that I cannot be his friend, been explicit about how detrimental it is to me to have any contact, pleaded with him to please just go away.
And now I look like the fucking asshole.
Great.
Just another dish of "
I do believe I've had
I needed a good laugh today
That is the best example of
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Unfreakinreal
LMFAO at your post. Yeah,
don't threaten me with a good time, Chief.
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Thank you everyone...
MY DLB
In know this cycle so well. I
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"He doesnt call every day but
Done sourcing- YOU ROCKED my morning with this post!
I absolutely agree with DS
Winter
Don't beat yourself up
Well get me some chaps and call me Roy Rogers...
Just sent you a PM
Get over what you look like
"Choose wellness and lightness of being."
done sourcing you are awesome
Thank you ds...
They are masters at their
He didn't even ask me for the
Take the money and go buy
You're sane
Am I?
"I will call you in a couple weeks"