Hunter is right (but, please I need support)
Hunter is right (but, please I need support)
Contact = Pain
Fear not, friends. Not physical contact. But I googled him last night. I was feeling sad about Christmas, sad about everything. And I googled him. That very limited "contact" made the feeling worse. I don't really feel like its actual contact, as I did not call or text him at all. Last physical contact was 54 days ago.
Ive been on the antidepressants for 10 days now, so I guess it's not as bad as it could be, but I was still reduced to tears and "could/should have been".
Why couldn't he have been who he said he was? Why, of all people for God to send me, did I get him? What lesson is there? I don't want to hear how strong this will make me. I think a pregnancy cut short , a critically ill baby, and a failed marriage is enough. ENOUGH! God, are you listening??? I HAVE HAD ENOUGH. I waited until I was ready, after my divorce, to "get back out there". I am young, smart, successful, kind, and kind of pretty on a good day. Why did G have to happen??
IT'S NOT FAIR.
I feel like my 3yr old when I say that. I literally want to stomp my feet and scream that IT'S NOT FAIR until someone scoops me up and hugs me.
IT'S NOT FAIR AND WE SHOULD BE SPENDING CHRISTMAS TOGETHER. But no, he is engaged to that South American whore (sorry, I just can't feel badly for her) and he is probably screwing God knows how many other women.
We met 1 year ago on 12/28. Maybe that's why it's so painful right now. Any normal couple would have special plans to celebrate that special anniversary. But not me.
Why God? Why why why why why why why?
S.
Remember-
Because we were vulnerable
RP
It's just me and "Thomas" for
He's a nice Man you can find
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It's okay. I don't like or
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Beautiful, Sparrow :)
1year ago..Dooms day
"IT'S NOT FAIR AND WE SHOULD
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