HUGE RED FLAGS!!! THAT YOU SHOULD ALL READ AND LEARN FROM < I DID

This was one of his earliest letters to me and in it lies the huge red flag that I didnt understand as I was already captured and in love. let it be a warning to all future relationships.
I revisited this with him many times he would never explain.

Finally I found out how true this was and how he had sucked me in with pity for him. Ill post it on the forum for new comers.

NB >>>>He is N in the letter.

I am Regina, not my real name, simply means Queen in Italian.

PLEASE READ RIGHT TO THE END AND SEE THE SHOCKING TRUTH!!!

Ciao sweet Regina.
This is the first time i check my mail after i came back. The journey in Venice has been a wonderful, lovely time. I realised that we are enjoying each other in an unusual way. I think it is because we can allow ourselves to be 100% children when we want to have fun, and we can speak very deeply when we are comunicating. As i told you many times, i never felt the needing end the joy to kiss and talk to somebody so much.
And the way our bodies match when we make love is absolutely complete, without limits.
With love,
Nicola

>To: n
>
> Dear N, thankyou for the most wonderful, time
>in venice, it was wonderful to have such fun with you
>and to explore the romance of Venice. i cant think of
>anyone else on the planet that i would rather have
>gone with, you are the most fabulous company and i
>love you to the sky and back. i especially love the
>way we both enjoy the beauty of nature and cooking
>together going on the train together and just being
>children. with you i have space and i am so enjoying
>getting to know you again, im so glad youre back home
>at last,, my love, its been a long few months. hope
>you had fun with your children today i love and miss
>you Ti amo amore. see you soon your amante xxxxxx >
>

Ciao Regina.
This is our first mail after you left and the first thing that i feel to say is that I miss you a lot. Thank you for having been with me and for all the fun we had together. Ý want to apologise if ý made you upset or uncomfortable, especially for the things that i told you, but i feel the needing to be like an open book to you. It is strange, because i didn t have this needing with my wife or Alessandra, it is like if you had the key of my soul, and it is wonderful.
I have just come back from the cinema. I watched a very american movie: shooting, fighting etc. Good for me because i didn t have to understand the words to follow the story. This morning i have been listening your cd laying on a bed in the swimming pool. In the afternoon italian tv and gym.
Well, it is time for bed. I hope to hear you tomorrow. We have some problem with the telephone cards: they have only a kind that can be used with few telephones and often don t work properly as you saw in Istanbul. Anyway i will try to call tomorrow. A big kiss to my sweet, nice, wonderful Regina. I miss you, my love.
Ciao,
N

Ciao wonderful Regina.
all what i know of americans are movies and books. Normally, in bot they are
always heros, brave, strong Rambos, able, clever, smart, extraordinary
lovers (men, of course), organized, etc. etc. In one word: perfect. When i
watch a movie or read a book i feel like a poor, small, shy, silly dago. So,
how can you complain about these wonderful, kind, fair, lovely people?
Shame!
Today is a winter day: strong rain, strong wind. As I sms you, I got a room
on the roof, and to reach the lift I have to cross the entire roof, about 20
metres. This morning, because the floor was wet, I crossed slowly slowly.
So, my day started with an unforeseen shower. Fortunately I have clean shirt
in the office and I could wear a dry one, but the trousers…
Because of the bad weather, today no test (T is afraid of
humidity). I’m joking, it was really impossible to go at sea. Tomorrow they
don’t give us the permission, so we are supposed to do the test on
Wednesday.
Yesterday, after we spoke, i had a very relaxing shower, shave and one hour
of complete relax laying in my big bed. It has been nice to hear ^the
voice^. I missed you too, and i wrote this poem to tell you how i m feeling
in these days.

Like the wing of a butterfly,
You caress my heart,
When the day is going to die,
In my dreams, like a dart,
You come. And your body I desire,
And your love I feel to need.
In my blood you light a fire,
With your charm my soul you feed.

Ciao, e tanti baci,
N

Ciao sweet Regina.
This morning I watched the Villa: it’s really extraordinarily beautiful! Unfortunately I didn’t manage to watch the videos because the computer doesn’t have the proper software for videos. But the pictures are incredible. When I saw them I said “wow!” (not the same kind of wow that I said during hot sex, spicy more than hot). I think you would be lucky to live there if your guest were not from USA. You should print my poem of yesterday night and hang it to the main gate of the villa, may be they would start to call you in the proper way. You can tell them that I am big, strong, angry, ugly, professional killer and whatever you want, you have my permission.
Friday I had probably the most frustrating day (professionally speaking) of my 6 month in turkey: the test has been aborted because of a stupid, fucking (I mean fucking me) switch!!! So tomorrow we have to adjust it and on Tuesday to repeat the test. The main problem is that every failure makes the inspection team more upset and uncertain about the craft (and they have a lot of reasons to be uncertain). Anyway, on Tuesday we will see. Yesterday night, as I told you, I have involved for the second time in belly dance. The dancer took, as usual, 5 men, took away our shirts, made us dancing first and then laying on the floor. She put the shirts on our face so we shouldn’t see what was happening. Then she took 5 women and made them dancing above us, then sitting above our… you know where, and moving their bottom. My friend Tony (he is 63!) was embarrassed a lot, because he had a reaction difficult to hide, mainly to the woman sitting on him. Anyway, we decided to change the restaurant on the next Saturdays. After that adventure of 1001 nights you should explain to me why you think that I’m a show man. I’m so shy!
Well, a lot of kisses, I hope to have the chance to see you soon. I’m missing you a lot, Queen of my dreams.
Ciao,
N

> )
>
> Dear N , the best way to see the best photos of the
> villa, is to follow these steps exactly.
>
>
> good.
> 6. MY ROOM IS RIGHT AT THE TOP NEXT TO THE CHAPEL,
>
> as it was , i have to sleep right next
> to a church.
> go into all the highlighted headings in the
> description as you will see very good photos have fun
>
> > i managed finally to send you the fax and your
> > machine is off. Yesterday
> > night internet connection not working. Technologic
> > shit!
> > I ll send the fax by post. It is just a jock, but i
> > m sure you will enjoy.
> > It 6:30 turkish time, so i think you woke up just
> > half an hour ago, then
> > good morning.
> > I think that for you to work with USA people means
> > to feel much more tired
> > than with other guest, so you are working 36 hour a
> > day. Better you find the
> > time to rest, as every Queen do.
> > Carina and doro should be really funny. Definitely
> > you got a new family.
> > Yesterday morning i had the foot ball match with
> > navy s people. We won but i
> > didn t play since June, so today i m completely
> > peinful: legs and feet are
> > gone, so i m walking like a robot.
> > My days became quite boring: morning and afternoon
> > are ok, but the evenings,
> > after dinner, nothing to do except the usual walk on
> > the sea promenade. Now
> > i know avery single brick of that street. Walking on
> > the street didn t work
> > last night: i didn t get any money, so i don t think
> > to have a chance in
> > that business, better if i manage to get working
> > this fucking craft. Me to i
> > have to eat sometimes (mainly at breakfast).
> > Now this is the situation: we asked to start
> > the tests on next monday
> > (7th oct) to complete as soon as possible and get
> > the payment of the second
> > half. We don t think they will accept, they said 20
> > days more and 20 days
> > must be. Turkish people is like german (crucchi):
> > they do exactly what they
> > say, no elasticity. I feel much more italian:
> > sometimes we do what we say.
> > Anyway, today and tomorrow we are supposed to dive
> > to have a preliminary
> > check (cross your fingers please, as usual i ll
> > touch my self as i explained
> > talking about flying on 11th sept). Within tomorrow
> > they will send the
> > answer then we will see what to do next week and if
> > i get some day off.
> . I m courious to see
> > the villa. About me, the
> > address is
> >
> > A hotel,
> >
> > Room 511 (not necessary, everybody knows me after 5
> > months)
> >
> > if you want to see me: look at
> > the fifth floor, last
> > window right side looking from the swimming pool.
> > May be they put me in
> > their web site as customer of the year.
> > Good, time for breakfast now.
> > Have a good day, Queen, and have many kisses from
> > Topotonto alias the Dago,
> > alias happy camper, alias the official poet of Villa
> > Mic.
> >
> >
> > >
> > >Date: Wed, 2 Oct 2002
> > >
> > > - Dear N
> > >well a busy day, and i was woken at 6. so i look
> > >forward to some sleep. tonite i have to wake up at
> > >five am to get someone to the airport. and then
> > again
> > >on friday at 4am, so early start.
> > >carina and doro really made me laugh tonite ,today
> > >doro became carinas mother, carina tries to catch
> > >doros tail when it is moving, and she hangs off
> > doros
> > >ears to play with them, before doro was growling.
> > >today she is washing carina with her tongue and the
> > >cat is so small its ridiculous. carina sleeps next
> > to
> > >doros chest and she purrs so loudly. it sounds like
> > a
> > >tractor. while i was typing this letter.i heard
> > doro
> > >growling and carina was suckling from doro like she
> > >was a puppy and trying to get milk from doro. doro
> > is
> > >so sweet she allowed carina to do this with her
> > sharp
> > >teeth and claws. carina thinks doro is her mother
> > and
> > >she must get milk from her although doro is 5 times
> > >the size of a mother cat. labradors are so sweet.

> > >tonite i listened to the pianist, who is world
> > class,
> > >play "a song for guy" one of elton johns songs, for
> > >me. he plays beautifully, and has invited me to
> > visit
> > >the states.

> > >im sorry i didnt get your fax, my printer is
> > broken,so
> > >i look forward to a letter in the post.
> > >i would like to come to see u but, ive just been
> > away
> > > and we are very busy, so i cant take leave.
> > >when i take leave ,im out of italy which means i
> > cant
> > >work,, if i dont work ,i dont eat.
> > >thats why i asked you if i should visit you in
> > august
> > >when i had a whole month with little to do, and you
> > >laughed/ i also offered to see you on the way back
> > >from in turkey
> > >as i was in athens which is an hours flight away.
> > but
> > >no response, so now i cant move ,u will have to do
> > the
> > >travelling perhaps when yoU are waiting for your
> > tests
> > >u can take a day leave.i dont know im sure u can
> > work
> > >it out.
> > >i am looking forward to sunday as i plan to do a
> > walk
> > >up the mountain with my pilot friend.
> > >im working 24 hours at the moment.
> > >how was your day,? ill send you a postcard if you
> > send address

Yesterday it has been raining all day and it was
> > > > cold. My natural cashmere
> > > > didn’t work properly then I went to buy some
> > > > clothes. Gym in the afternoon
> > > > to spend some time of a very boring week end.
> > Then
> > > > to bed waiting for dinner
> > > > time. More than a poet I have become a sleeping
> > > > machine, I think.
> > > > To come to Italy for a week end could be a good
> > idea
> > > > but I should manage to
> > > > have a Friday or Monday off because it takes 13
> > > > hours to come and 16 from
> > > > . We are now in a rush to
> > prepare
> > > > the test, so it will be
> > > > impossible this week end. For the next we will
> > see.
> > > > There could be an other
> > > > solution: what about a week end in Istanbul?

HERE IS THE EVIL INTENTION DECLARED NOTE WELL !!!

> > > > Your poem is fine and interesting, but I made a
> > > > promise to my self many
> > > > years ago that I wouldn’t have lost the control
> > > > anymore. I have trained my
> > > > brain to become very powerful, so now to put it
> > to
> > > > sleep is a hard
> > > > challenge.
> > > >
> > > > I.
> > > > I have an animal inside,
> > > > Of which I don’t have pride,
> > > > Of which I never tell,
> > > > But once in him I fell.
> > > > Once has been enough,
> > > > Holding him is very tough
> > > > I need my entire mind
> > > > For the peace that I would find

Again here is my future pain laid out in this statement by the Narc!!!!

> > Your poem is fine and interesting, but I made a
> > > > promise to my self many
> > > > years ago that I wouldn’t have lost the control
> > > > anymore. I have trained my
> > > > brain to become very powerful, so now to put it
> > to
> > > > sleep is a hard
> > > > challenge.
> > > >
> > > > I.
> > > > I have an animal inside,
> > > > Of which I don’t have pride,
> > > > Of which I never tell,
> > > > But once in him I fell.
> > > > Once has been enough,
> > > > Holding him is very tough
> > > > I need my entire mind
> > > > For the peace that I would find