How exN picks his weekend "dates"
How exN picks his weekend "dates"
I know he mostly gets his women online, aside from the usual pick ups in bars. So he logs in on IM in the morning of the weekend and sees which women are online. From that list, he chats up any of the women he'd like to see that weekend depending on his mood and his need at the moment.
It's like a cattle line up. Knowing how women go crazy over him, I know any would be happy for that chance to spend time with him. Once a lucky woman has been picked, auction block has been closed and he signs off. For those that haven't been picked, better luck next weekend.
I know I hate his stinking guts so I stay away most of the time. A few times I do miss him, I log in for the auction block hoping to be picked for the weekend. My value is way low as I suspect the others chase him while I rejected him in the past and even caused him narcissistic injury. I don't chase him at all. If ever, he thinks I'm indifferent to him. I know I am of some "value" to him that he won't reject any offer to meet if ever I am so bold to ask him outright. My pride is keeping me from doing this.
Now I sit in front of the computer. The auction block has closed and the N has made his choice for the day. I feel a sting of pain knowing he's probably chosen one of his webcam sluts for some fun in the weekend. He probably thought a decent girl like me takes too much work. Where can I go and buy me some self-respect?
Hang in there...you dont
Marina