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#1 Jun 12 - 12AM
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Hi Everyone!

For those of you that don't know me my story is: http://www.lisaescott.com/forum/2010/07/14/cherryblossom-story.
Please read it because I want to show you that you can survive this!!!!

I'm married to a kind, loving man now and I have a baby boy. Life has completely changed for me.

Two to three years ago I weighed about 105 pounds, I was diagnosed with PTSD, Seeing therapists, I was on medications such as Prozac and Xanax and I felt like I wanted to die from the pain that this man was putting me through but I kept going back over and over and over. He had a hold on me that I can't even explain. I loved him more than I loved myself.

The things he did to me were terrible. Mostly the mind games. And a lot of sexually deviant behavior that I agreed to do to make him happy. Most of the time my mind was spinning I was so confused at how/why someone could treat anyone that way. I was consumed with trying to figure him out. Looking back now I was just his toy. I found out that he had a whole different life and was lying to me about everything because we were long distance. I found out he had a girlfriend and that he wasn't broke and always working like he said he was. Anyways, my point is that I had lost myself and it did take a couple years of no contact and I still think of him once in awhile but mostly I just think of how awful things would have been if I had ended up with him. After I was married and had my baby he still was texting me even though he knew I was married and had a child. Before I got married he texted me numerous times a day for about seven months. It would change from your my best and oldest friend to I love you to I know you still want me. Every tactic was used. I remained strong and did not one time respond. After all what would I have said? Thanks for wasting four years of my life. Take a chance on getting sucked in again? No, I couldn't do it anymore.

I just want you all to know that it does get better with time even though right now it feels like you will never get over him. Believe in yourself. Don't over analyze his behavior. There is no rhyme or reason. Its just craziness because that is what they get off on. Stay on this site and read, read, read!!!! I owe this site and the people who helped me through over and over again when I kept going back my life. Keep your chin up and just focus at the light at the end of the tunnel. You can do this!!

Love you all!!

xxA

Jun 12 - 9AM
Goldie
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Apple

Jun 12 - 8AM
Learningthehardway
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What a GREAT post!

Jun 12 - 8AM
hope03
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Wow!!! That's really nice :)

Jun 12 - 8AM
Hunter
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Congratulations! Hunter

Jun 12 - 7AM
Janie53
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apple

Jun 12 - 1AM
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Actually...

Jun 12 - 1AM (Reply to #2)
Journey
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Hi Apple! It's so great to

Journey on...

Jun 12 - 11AM (Reply to #3)
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Ditto to all sisters in strength

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