He's found God and what does that makes me? EVILLL!!

He was lapsed in his religion when we were together but now has found it big time. I was speaking to him tonight because we are still married but apart and it is such a shitty situation - knowing it is over but still feeling a connection and resentful and upset about him dating girls when I am still feeling like I am married therefore out of bounds. But I find it hard to come right out and ask for a divorce, which is what I should do. In a way I think it is easier if it comes from him, or is mutual.

Anyway I got a long lecture about how he is so much happier since finding God again, and how he feels pity for me and how I betrayed and hoodwinked him because I am not religious (well, I am actually, but in a wishy-washy non-churchy respecting all religions way, which suits me fine). But no, I am ungodly and surround myself with evil, which is the root of all the trouble in our marriage, and if I was in the church like him then things would have been different. What he is looking for now is a nice God-fearing girl, and when he finds her - and maybe he already has - he will "cherish her and hold her close" (yes, twist that knife in my side a bit more, dear husband). Which just wasn't possible with me because of my ungodliness which explains all the abuse and flirting with other women...because I hoodwinked him into marriage you see. But there might be a chance for me...he might..MIGHT.. take me back (forgets I left him) if I am willing to change. But meantime he is happy - so happy - without me, so it doesn't really matter if I come back or not. Which means getting rid of all the " black hatred and spite" that he says I harbour deep inside.

What an enticing offer. Does he actually believe any of this? Is this typical N stuff - suddenly embracing God? What should I do now? I don't mean turning to God - fine for those that want to, but I'm more non-conformist in my religious views. How do I get out of this mess and why can't I stop loving him?