Here's to all of us who have MISBEHAVED for the narcs

Ew. Flashback. Reading how a hoover is not a compliment from different posters made me have a flashback yesterday about something the exN said that at the time I thought was a compliment, but now I'm like O M G that was NOT a compliment! He said several months back he was always "testing" me in some ways. And he said "so far you've passed..."

UGHH. Do you know what that means? It means I was passing the narc's tests to "behave" how he wanted me to. To succumb to him. I became a different person with him in ways - trying to perfectly keep up with his little dance - always choosing my words ever so carefully and acting how I thought he would want me to act. And I was doing a good job!! Yuck! What the hell was I doing?????!!

I AM SO GLAD I STARTED MISBEHAVING LADIES! Funny to say something like that - to be glad we misbehaved! If we hadn't misbehaved the narcs mask might not have slipped so much and we'd still be under the spell. He might have kept us at the top of his GREAT SUPPLY list to keep using and abusing!

All so clear now. I can pinpoint different times I misbehaved, said things to him that in his mind were wrong (how dare I), and how the ST and punishing and devaluing would occur as a result. And the pain and confusion I would feel from it. Now I'm glad assmunch! You can eat shit!

Here's to all of us MISBEHAVING WOMEN! And to all the narcs who think we misbehaved - EAT SHIT!!!