HELP one month no contact
HELP one month no contact
So I've been NC for one month (againnn) previous to this I broke NC for 3 weeks and before that I was NC for 6 wks! During my previous 6 wks NC, he was texting me and little calling everyyy weekend for the 6 wks and I'm not gonna lie I was getting satisfaction with every ignore on my part! The I broke it and gave things "one last try" haa well I thought I was going to loose my mind, I have a slight case of OCD and found myself texting him against my own will because the anxiety was too bad! Anyways luckily (I guess u can say) I have two phones and the one which he contacts me on is not my main phone just use it for my ATT friends and the iphone apps! So a month ago I gave it to my best friend and we agreed she would monitor it for all messages etc NOT from him and tell me! We agreed she would only tell me that he intially text so I knew I was actively ignoring (again for a sick satisfaction)! And that when I felt ready I would take the phone back! A few times before all of this I have tried to block his number but that is a major fail for me and makes everything worse I COnSTANTLY think about him then and then am more inclined to impulsively text him! So blocking is not an option for me! During this past month of NC and not knowing I've generally been ok! Once or twice I got a littlke upset swearing that oh man he gave up this time (which I know would be good) but I was getting satisfaction out of actively ignoring him! Now I dnt know what to do! I do want my phone back and think ill really never be ready to know ok he's stopped trying! I am over the compulsions of reaching out to him but I fear whenever I find out that possibly he has stopped that ill break! How longggg can I go on like this! Help
1 month is very fresh. Moving
hunter
Hunter, I always enjoy
Sparrow
I think you've put yourself
I truly don't even want him
Prinseis, you said something
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Prinseis33
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