and I ask myself why would I want to text this freak? but somehow I do. I know it wont change anything but Im still having this overwhelming urge to. Geez when does this end!
If you really think about it,,,,,do you ever feel better after coming in to contact with him?? I know I don't. I always wonder why I answer that darned phone!!
he and I had a conversation about he and I being addicted to eachother. Which I think is true. I do think he is addicted to my supply positive or negative. I am great supply for him cause he can get under my skin like that! like I said one time i didnt text for nine days I got a response in thirty seconds when I broke NC so I think if you are good supply they become equally addicted even if you are not the primary supply
ya know this site has been an answered prayer for me. I think used to text him just so I could vent but now I have somewhere to do that with people who have been thru it. Your friends just dont get it they cant understand the addiction, the mind games and the emotional abuse these people have done to you. They say just walk away hes and idiot and under normal circumstances I would say and do the same but these people arent normal they plant themselves deep in your subsconscious for me it is truly an addiction one that I rid myself of 15 years ago. the only way to get over addiction is abstinence. All it took was on little innocent friend request on fb and the whole thing started all over again!
n use to say that to me, that we were addicted to each other, he probley said it to every woman he knows , its one of their lines. i read that on the net,and i pretty sure so did he. he said even when we are not talking to each other if i see you ive had my fix,[well seeing as he disappeared for 5mnths once, and when he had to be anywhere he thought i would be[he told me this when he came back] he avoided where i was. in 5mnths he could have had withdrawels and totally kicked the habit[me]. if you think anything of someone how can you disappear for 5mnths when you have been together that day and he said see you tomorrow, text me when you are out, i did, he never turned his phone on for 2days when he did he never answered, when we went back together i said why ask me to text knowing you were disappearing, he said b/c that way i have last word, he never had last word ever again, oh and the reason he disappeared i had called him a pathological liar. i wasent wrong.even reading this back has pissed me off.i cannot believe i stood for this crap time after time, yet in another way he did me a favor cos each time he came back i was less and less interested. nc for 10 1/2 months. yipee. but this time i done it.
but I think its true they are addicts! and if you are good supply they are equally as addicted. Thats why these relationships usually span years though it usually starts going bad within the first year. They are addicted they never truly get you out of there system unless they find someone who gives them better supply and even then they come back. Mine did 15 freakin years later! I think they do have some supplies that they are particularly attached to.
I know what you mean. They never want to give up good supply.
Which is why I took the painstaking efforts (even though I had no idea what a Narc was) to make sure there was no way he could contact me via phone, email, (didnt have text messgng back then)or address, nothin. We worked for the same company for a while afterwards. When he spoke to me against my wishes after I had made it very clear I wanted him out of my life, he threw a fit, but made the mistake of doing it in front of a credible witness. He got in trouble with his sup and had to sign a statement that he would leave mw alone or get fired. LOL!
And he was pissed that I got the last word. The last word being that I up and moved to another state and didn't bother to tell him about it, even though he knew it was coming. It was like he was waiting until the very last minute for me to drop him a line or somethng. This is why to this very day I am refered to as the Evil one, its even on his FB page. But ya know it wouldn't surprise me if he tried to contact me later, too. I was very good supply until I got wise. So then I could say, "oh yeah, so Im not evil anymore?" HAHAHA
And yes, our relationship started to sour within 9 or 10 months. But he kept hanging on like toilet paper on the bottom of my shoe cause he just couldnt survive without me apparently.
i truly played him at his own game towards end, but it was so tireing, when ihe came back i used to say thankyou for giving me somespace, you are so thoughtfull. and on his question, i look for you, why dont you look for me, i replied in case i find you. he was a sap realy. but i only relized all these things in hindsight.
i actually agree with you. they are addicts, and i certainly am in his system, i told him at the time i would get in his head, he laughed and said never. dont flatter yourself. he stalked me for over a year. but i didnt get in his head.lol. he also last week tried to join somewhere i go regularly, he was told no. poor sod.
keep thinking I can fix this. I know i cant. Like Im gonna get a nice text back from him- I wont. Those are few and far between. I swear its the worst addiction imaginable and its happened to me me twice!
Mine stole my early adult years...and I am still pissed at that one although there is nothing I can do about it.
You sound so feisty. like me. I know what you mean about not being able to resist the fight. Once I stepped back and away from the prick and saw he was actually a prick, I had so many good zingers and oneliners, wanted to give him a piece of my mind, etc. But it all falls on deaf ears. I mean, they do hear it/read it, but don't compute it like a normal guy.
They have no shame whatsoever.
So put down the phone 'cause its useless.
or I would have told that mo fo to get lost a long time ago and I wouldnt be on this site! but honestly Im beginning to love this site! Its very healing and I get some good laughs as the N's really are cheese balls and so freakin comical. Im still LMAO about the with the dog food and the steak knives funny stuff my friends! funny stuff
and I did not text today either
If you really think about
Well I didnt text
Awesome! You put down the
Peace. J
before I new he was N....
sick of it
they probably do say it to every woman
sick of it
sick of it
sick of it
Put down the phone! I
Peace. J
why do I
It is a brutal addiction and
Peace. J
i feel like a crack head
No good
cluelessuntilnow
i am so pissed
I know what you mean
yes im feisty but not feisty enough