He seems to have moved on to new supply...why aren't I happier about it?

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#1 Mar 17 - 5PM
AJRD
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He seems to have moved on to new supply...why aren't I happier about it?

Well, my work N was openly hitting on another woman today (right in front of me). I walked past, rolled my eyes, and went back to my office. It was like deja vu seeing him chat up this girl--a year ago, that girl was me.

So obviously he's moved on. I should be doing happy dances down the hallway. Instead I am feeling crushed and defeated. I don't want him back--but I also felt special around him...now I know I was just in a long line of women that he does this to.

Sigh,
Amy

Mar 18 - 12PM
AJRD
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So today, I had to watch him go into her office to "talk" to her

Gah, like a knife in the gut. I KNOW I'm better off, I KNOW she will be where I am in a year. It still hurts, and I still hate the he makes me hurt after all this time.
Mar 18 - 5AM
ewa
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In fact you are special. Ant

In fact you are special. Ant the thing you are not with him makes you special, that you were enough strong to stop him from hurting you. It is just a frist step, now you need to work on your selfconfidence and selflove. Once you will love yourself enough, you wont think of him. Hugs.
Mar 18 - 12PM (Reply to #11)
AJRD
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Thanks--hugs back. I need

Thanks--hugs back. I need one right now.
Mar 17 - 9PM
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ARJD

Man, I took a big SIGH too when I saw your post. I am living this every day- just like you. Your post pretty much sums up my daily experience at work every day! There are a few of us here working with our ex's and their new supply. It is exactly how you describe it- deja vu. I have used the same phrase to describe this- it is so unbelievable to pay witness to! It's like watching a bad movie. I know it is SO SO SO tough to see, it is a struggle for me to get out of bed every day and know I am entering into this. I think of the office as a battleground, and like I am engaged in some sort of psychological warfare with him day in and day out. It is mentally and physically exhausting. However, you know, and I know, that we are better off when they move on to someone else. I know your doubt and defeat. Lately, I have been wondering about what other people in the office are thinking as they watch it, if they have noticed- Hey, wasn't this NP last year? What happened to her?' He will be shameless with the new girl. He will not give a shit if YOU see, if ANYONE else sees, he won't give a shit when he drops the new girl. Most importantly- you ARE special. Him moving on in his pathological and sick disordered fashion does NOT reflect badly on you. You are a good person- you are what he is not- and this is what drew him to you to begin with. He wanted from you what he is lacking and what he knows he can never be. Hang in there! Hugs, NP
Mar 18 - 12PM (Reply to #9)
AJRD
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I recently got a national

I recently got a national award in my profession, and he did have the balls to come over and congratulate me on it. I was polite and thanked him. Then he went over and hit on her. I wonder if the recent work success I had made him feel like he had to go do that. I need to stop analyzing and just move on, I know.
Mar 17 - 7PM
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UGH and ISH good riddance FREAK

Didnt that scene kind of remind you of a strolling pimp? UGH, let her have him you paid dearly enough for being with a disordered person. Oh and I have news for you he was moving on to others WHILE he was with you, these guys dont "move on" they are always on the move with or without them. Something to think about.
Mar 17 - 10PM (Reply to #6)
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Neverlookback said it and I will repeat:

he was moving on to others WHILE he was with you, these guys dont "move on" they are always on the move with or without them.
Mar 18 - 12PM (Reply to #7)
AJRD
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It makes me so sad to think

It makes me so sad to think about that. I invested so much and he invested...nothing.
Mar 17 - 7PM
ABC0311
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I'm jealous

I want mine to find someone else so he will leave me alone.
Mar 17 - 5PM
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You know that staying away

You know that staying away from him is smart and you ar better off without him. That doesn't change the fact that you had feelings for him and you got hurt. That's why it sucks to see him with someone else. I work with mine too and see him doing the same things with other girls that he did with me. It still hurts. Keep in mind that in about a year she will be the one on this board posting about how he hurt her. By that time you will be much happier and won't care. There were probably girls before you too. Its a sick cycle and its unfortunate we had to get caught up in it. Just feel lucky that you are out and its time for you to heal. He will probably try to come back to you. That's what mine is doing now. Hopefully by that time you will be strong enough to put him in his place. Stick in there and try to focus on your job. I close my door and listen to music. I am able to drown him out and my work performance has improved.
Mar 17 - 8PM (Reply to #3)
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Oh no exhausted!

Not to hijack the thread- but I didn't know he was coming back for another round for you. I am sorry to hear that. :( Be strong lady!
Mar 17 - 6PM (Reply to #2)
AJRD
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I am so mad at myself for being jealous

I hate that I am jealous. I feel like he wins...again. Argh.