he just e-mailed me... getting anxious...
he just e-mailed me... getting anxious...
a week after it is over...
now he seems like a martyr, talking about how awful he is, how he knows he was a bad boyfriend, how he knows that my finding happiness "like he's 'wanted' all along" involves leaving him. he dumped me "for my own good." (even though i actually initiated the break up because i was loosing my effing mind and was emotionally drained). he sounds like such a phony in this e-mail. i know i shouldn't have read it, but i did. why is he writing like this? am i supposed to feel SORRY for him when only a week ago he was lecturing on how I just "didn't make him happy anymore."
what gives. i tried so hard for that guy...and in this e-mail he makes it sound like he tried so so hard but nothing was enough for me. my expectations for a normal, balanced relationship are not out of line! he is so warped. i need to feel comfortable saying these things, because all too often i simply excuse it, defend him...
i am really good at being hyper compassionate. i even tried to reach him through some Buddhist teachings on compassion and loving kindness... but since he thinks he is superior spiritually to me and since "I am not a Buddhist and neither are you" he wouldn't listen to those tools...
it doesn't matter anymore though. it's over. i can't change him. i know he's going to play martyr to all the clueless girls that he charms out in the city...
i wonder if i am the wicked witch. or maybe i am just the Ophelia that went crazy.
i am so angry.
subtle blame shifting........
they are all the same....maybe they are cloned....
Aceonelady
littlestbird
You are not the wicked witch !!
It's not you!
We are a bunch of angry
YES!!
Aceonelady
angry with a narcissist?
they do all have the same manual