He admitted he was damaged in 2006 and I had no idea what NPD was. This is what he wrote!
He admitted he was damaged in 2006 and I had no idea what NPD was. This is what he wrote!
Hey all, I am considered an old timer. I am NC for 11 months now. I will stress that NC and God has saved my life. Those who don't know my story, I was in a very violent and abusive marriage for 25 years. I attempted divorce 4 times and each time he manipulated and charmed his way back into my life to abuse me worse each time. I have never broken NC and completely cut him out of my life. This was very difficult for me and I am very proud of myself because I had zero self esteem and was a hopeless and helpless anxiety ridden hot mess.
Fast forward 11 months.My life is amazing! I am happy most of the time. I have my friends back and my 2 adult children are soooo happy for me. My teenager is blooming and coming out of his shell. I gave up the idea for closure and decided to give myself closure. When I went NC and started taking care of me that was my closure and I was content with it. I am enjoying being single again. I am 48 and feel like I'm 30 again.
I was looking for some papers for my lawyer and ran across this letter that he had written to me in 2006 (round 3) I had no idea about NPD or personality disorders and went back to him. If I had the knowledge back then that I have today I could have saved myself sooooo much pain but hey when you know better you do better.
These are his words exactly:
I hate what you turned me into when you threw me out of the house last year. I had nothing, I got nothing and will probably die with nothing but that's the way the cookie crumbles. You're so right, I never did anything for your children (his step children) or my son except lie and deceive them into thinking I was this striving human being. I saw our son last night for the last time but only he doesn't know it. He was so clingy as if he felt it, lying his head in my chest like he was three years old again. I wish so badly that I wasn't so damaged. I'm sorry! I tried to help everyone I could but I end up like this. I'm sorry.
I should have run and never looked back but instead I felt sorry for him and went back and he made sure that he almost killed me in every which way possible.
Please everyone do what you have to do to GET OUT, AND STAY OUT!
Life is so good on the other side!
Peace and hope always!
How do you stay NC with children involved?
Hi lillymarch
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Lilymarch
I have to disagree sparrow. I
littleone and sparrow
victimnomore
It's so heartbreaking for the
I hear you and agree with
NC with children
ordinary
victimnomore
Well done! You have so much
Thanks Erali
victimnomore
victimnomore
How are you onwithmylife
victimnomore
vicitmnomore
Don't worry
victimnomore
Great ! I think of the story
fooled no longer LOL!
victimnomore
Happy Freedom!!! Hunter
Thanks Hunter
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