Guess Who I Spent The Weekend With?

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#1 Jan 30 - 5PM
victimnomore
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Guess Who I Spent The Weekend With?

I don't want to sound too happy here WTF??? But I just had the most amazing weekend. Friday afternoon I was just sooo tired of stressing about my NH, Psychopath and I decided to take you guys advice from the board. Do something fun. So I called My 2 grandchildren (ages 3 and 7 months) 9 nieces (ages 24, 24, 17, 14, 10, 9, 8, 2, and 8 months) 2 nephews (ages 7, and 1)
And my mom.

We had a sleepover just to celebrate my life. We had popcorn, fruit, spaghetti and meatballs (which i cooked) ice cream, chips and to top it off i baked cookies! We played the x-box lets dance game and x-box sports and then we watched Little Shop Of Horrors. (a family favorite, we know all of the words and songs).

This is a big step for me as I have been isolating myself since the D & D and ending the relationship. I had so much fun and I danced and acted silly with all of the children and we finally went to sleep at 4:00 in the morning.

I could hardly move when I woke up the next morning. (I am 47, so not use to all of this action).
IIt has been 5 months and I know that I have a long way to go but I am finally feeling like the fog is lifting and I noticed today that I haven't really cried (I mean a good cry) In maybe 2 weeks.

The only negative thing that happened during the party was that my NH called our son on his cell phone (I am strictly NC) and must have heard all of the noise and asked our son what was going on. I heard our son tell him it was a sleep over with all of the family and guess what?
He had the nerve to ask to speak to some of the nieces and nephews. I was going to get upset but i remembered NC and walked out of the room. When i went back My granddaughter who is 3 was talking to him then she started playing with the phone and hung up on him yipeee!

We resumed our sleepover and had a great time. Now i don't want to think that I am done with my recovery but I am learning to take every good day as it comes and I am learning, training myself to have a good time without him and it feel so good.

Thanks for all of your support. This board is truly saving my life along with my higher power.

Jan 31 - 11AM
ewa
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Fantastic. You had such a

Fantastic. You have such a big family, that's so nice. You are a lucky woman really!!
Jan 31 - 11AM (Reply to #24)
victimnomore
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ewa

Yeah I am really lucky to come from a big family and I didn't realize how much I had begun to isolate myself from them due to trying so hard to do everything for my NH. What a waste of time!

victimnomore

Jan 31 - 9AM
Hunter
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Rock On! There is more to

Rock On! There is more to life than these Narc's! Wahoooooooo !!!
Jan 31 - 3PM (Reply to #22)
Hunter
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Well I'm proud of you. I

Well I'm proud of you. I does take some work to get there, but once you cross the finish line that blue ribbon you receive feels amazing. Idealk
Jan 31 - 10AM (Reply to #21)
victimnomore
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idealk9nyc

Yes there is more to life than the narcs and I am trying to enjoy it!

victimnomore

Jan 30 - 9PM
almostlydia
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Good for you. I have often

Good for you. I have often wondered if this experience has made it possible to see the joy in the simplest things again. Things we overlooked in the past. I know it has done this for me. Stay strong, you are truly on you way. Hallelujah. almostlydia

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Jan 30 - 9PM (Reply to #19)
victimnomore
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almostlydia

I thought I would start small and simple (even though I ended up with the whole family) LOL! I truly enjoyed just being silly with the children and dancing, which I haven't done in a long time. I am trying to live my life In the moment because this is where I find my peace! I have been angry, frustrated, sad, suicidal, you name it i felt it and now i am tired of being miserable. being alive is a gift and I am grateful that I have another chance to live. especially after living with a psychopath.

victimnomore

Jan 30 - 9PM
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OMG!! LOL!!!

OMG!! LOL!!! Congradulations!! You, my friend, are gonna be FINE. I really respect how you promoted your own NC by walking out of the room when he wanted to be passed around on the phone. You did not attempt to "control" what you couldn't control (him), you controlled what you could and took yourself away :) EXCELLENT. If this is the kind of stuff you do to rebuild your relationships, get out of your own head, reconnect with your happy, fun-loving side . . . whoa, you are definitely going to kick serious butt in your recovery. I am so impressed!!!
Jan 30 - 9PM (Reply to #17)
victimnomore
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Briseis Thanks, Thanks, Thanks!

I swear You always put such a positive thought provoking spin on things. It never even occurred to me that I couldn't control him or his behavior, but now that I read your response, you know what? It was about me controlling myself and my behavior and not feeding into his childish behavior. He's just not that important anymore! Wow I am proud of myself. Thanks for the insight!

victimnomore

Jan 30 - 6PM
Happy1
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Good for you!

It sounds like such a great night! Way to Go! Happy
Jan 30 - 9PM (Reply to #15)
victimnomore
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Hi Happy

I have been reading your posts and i know that you have been having a hard time, believe me i know how you feel. 5 month ago I never thought i could enjoy something as simple as a sleep over with my family (very large family) But i did and I know that soon you will begin to feel a whole lot better. Just hang in there. I am proof after 25 years of hell with my NH That we "normal" humans can endure much more than we think we can. Just look at what we endured being involved with a disordered person. If we survived them, than we can survive anything! {{{HUGGS}}}

victimnomore

Jan 30 - 6PM
alittledark
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Very happy for you!

And sounds like your family is blessed by your lovely, happy self. Keep looking forward and enjoying the good side of life! I love to hear these positive stories. I do not want the peace which passeth understanding, I want the understanding which bringeth peace. --Helen Keller

I do not want the peace which passeth understanding, I want the understanding which bringeth peace.
--Helen Keller

Jan 30 - 6PM (Reply to #13)
victimnomore
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Thank you alittledark

Yes I am so blessed to have my family. They have all been very supportive and they are just glad that i am out of that nightmare. i am really trying to move forward. i have wasted enough time!

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Jan 30 - 6PM
StillHurting
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Sounds like a blast!

Glad you had some fun! I am looking forward to FUN myself.
Jan 30 - 6PM (Reply to #11)
victimnomore
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Stillhurting

I really did have a blast. i love my family so much I actually forgot what it feels like to just be!

victimnomore

Jan 30 - 5PM
ally2375
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Victim no more

Yay!!! I am so happy for you! You are embracing life and being silly and sharing time with the people who love you and who love you the most! That's so great - really! Hold on to the feeling. Ally
Jan 30 - 6PM (Reply to #6)
victimnomore
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ally2375

Yes it really felt good to realize that i have tons of people who love me and I truly do not need him to love me and i don't need him to love!

victimnomore

Jan 30 - 6PM (Reply to #7)
becsta777
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Seeking out my friends and

Seeking out my friends and family again has played a huge part in my recovery to date. Just realising that I had so many people out there who love me - wow, it gave me back some zest for life and it's been relatively downhill from there. It's also helped to know that the narc has no real close friends and hates his family (thats one of the things he was jealous of with me) and even though he was probably with some other woman or showing off about something to some admiring stranger, at least I had REAL relationships and didn't have to be alone if I didn't want to!
Jan 30 - 6PM (Reply to #9)
victimnomore
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becsta777

I ha ve reconnected with some old friends who couldn't stand by and see me destroyed by my Nh. They all have been very supportive and I love them for it. My Nh nephews have been calling me because they told their mother that they miss me and I want to get them but i do not want my Nh to know because he will try to use this to contact me.

victimnomore

Jan 30 - 6PM (Reply to #8)
victimnomore
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becsta777

I ha ve reconnected with some old friends who couldn't stand by and see me destroyed by my Nh. They all have been very supportive and I love them for it. My Nh nephews have been calling me because they told their mother that they miss me and I want to get them but i do not want my Nh to know because he will try to use this to contact me.

victimnomore

Jan 30 - 5PM
onwithmylife
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victimnomore

So happy to hear you had a ha a great weekend with your family members, makes me envious as I have so little family left. There is LIFE after the Narc as everyone can testify and you will begin to breathe normally again!!!
Jan 30 - 5PM (Reply to #2)
victimnomore
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OWML

Thanks and I am sorry that you have so little family left, Buy hey you have a large family right here on the boards and we are happy to have you as family. :) We can pull an all nighter on the boards!

victimnomore

Jan 30 - 5PM (Reply to #3)
onwithmylife
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vicitmnomore

I love you, wish you lived near me! This is my internet family!!!
Jan 30 - 6PM (Reply to #4)
victimnomore
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OWML

Love you Too! I wish we all lived in the same city that way we could have one big bye bye NARC party!

victimnomore