Goodbye, I need to heal now.

I didn’t deserve this life. I really wish I knew why you brought me into your wrath of fury.

When I met you, I was single, happy and pretty content with my simple life. I am a single Mom of a little girl, who was my only focus. My life consisted of working out, taking care of her, keeping my house clean, loving and respecting people, and working as hard and as honestly as I could at my job.

The day you told me I was beautiful, you made me feel a flutter in my heart and soul like I hadn’t felt before. You pursued me gently as I was perhaps a little shy and resistant. Here you were….this wealthy man, with a huge life, lots of money and many houses. It took me 2 weeks to really absorb that this man could like little old me.
You used to make me feel special. Towards the end, all I did was cry. At least every 4 days you put me in tears.
You are so messed up in the head. You manipulated everything I said, you twisted words and made them look as if I was wrong all the time. You called me horrible names, I never deserved any of that, or did anything to even receive that. You cheated on me and made a pathetic excuse that you were lonely.

You threatened me with a lawsuit, which you knew was totally a fabricated claim. You threatened to have me arrested if I came near you, and then gave me a dozen roses less than 20minutes later.

You made fun of my daughter. An innocent 10yr old girl.

I sacrificed time with my family, friends, and my hometown, EVERYTHING for you. I changed my whole e life to accommodate you and NOTHING was ever good enough. NOTHING! Everything I did was wrong and you let me know every day. I never did anything right in your eyes
I took care of you so much, I never called you a name; I never did anything to hurt you and bent over backwards for you. I lost sleep, I gained weight. Your sexual desires started getting weird. You treated me like shit, you would stand over me and yell at me for hours upon hours, then buy me something and tell me you were sorry and would never do it again. How many times did you yell at me like this?? The list is long and endless....the pain, the actions, they are endless.

You are a stone cold liar. You manipulate everyone. You have NO friends and the few people around you, use you for money. You can’t see the webs you weave and the destruction you cause. You make fun of everyone. You talk as if everyone is stupid and you are GOD. You constantly complain. You are never happy. You constantly need attention and admiration. Nothing is every good enough for you. If only people knew the real you. You put your best face forward but underneath it all, you are evil.

You have put me through hell. You are nothing but pathetic 47year old man that acts like an immature 7 years old.
You are NOT GOD. Get that through your head, you are NOT GOD. You are simply a man who made millions and has the biggest ego, agenda and callous heart on earth. You don’t care about anyone other than yourself. You use people SO BADLY. SO BADLY.

Your company will fail, you know why? Because it is false. You can’t sell what you don’t practice; people are beginning to see through the façade.

I wonder, how many lies do you start your day off with each day? That must be exhausting for you to keep up with all of your lies. Fact is, I have a long laundry list of inhumane things you have done to me.

Your new girl is pretty, but I am sure she will see through you soon. And then you will repeat the cycle you know….again and then do it again and then do it again.
You have NO idea what love is….People are tools and possessions to you. You are a control freak. You are a pathetic, sad soul.

You have done things like demean me, critique me, call me names, cheat on me, threaten me, manipulate me…..Yeah, you did. But you know what, you didn’t break me. You may have millions, but I am worth more. In the last 6mos, I was able to starting seeing you for what you are. You are a fraud. A sad little fraud in your fancy house and cars. Take all that money away and what is left? Evil packaged in your body with your name. You are nothing more than a disgrace to mankind. You are a disgrace to God’s plan for humans and to serve others. All you serve is yourself. One day, just one day….you will wake up and it will be too late when reality hit.

As unbelievably painful as I have felt in the last few weeks, I am so glad I didn’t marry you, respond to your pathetic cries of you can’t live without me. Or your sobbing voicemails. “I love you, I can’t live without you, please I will change”

It is all a ploy to get me back where you want me, so you can have your cake and eat it too. I am no longer participating. I am not a victim, I am winner here and while I am focused on regaining my health and losing 15lbs…..You are ugly and that will never change. There are so many good men out there on this earth; you are just not one of them.

I grieve today and it is grieving a dream of that man I met……now I know, it was all an act. I fell in love with a phony.

I now know why you wanted to marry me. I was safe, loyal, committed, loving and always stood by your side, but you wanted to have your cake and eat it too. We have been broken up 3 weeks and you already have a new girl? Yeah, true love for me huh?

You are an abuser. You abuse people. You abused me badly.

You are not a good person.
You are evil.
You are an abuser.
You are a cheater.
You are a liar.
You are a manipulator.
You are an addict.
You are a sad, sad man.
You have a huge EGO.
You are a living Dorian Gray.

I didn't deserve this.
You don't deserve me.
I have nothing else to say.
Good bye.