Found a receipt from a trip we took 6 months ago....
Found a receipt from a trip we took 6 months ago....
I think you know you’ve healed…when you can stumble upon something from the past, and it doesn’t cause you tears, anger, or really anything. I cleaned out some old receipts today from my purse (my purse is a junk heap half the time) and found an old receipt from the trip we took together 6 months ago. It’s been six months, wow. I looked at the receipt…remembered when we shared coconut shrimp, an appetizer. I remember what I wore. Remember where we were…it was so serene, and I remember thinking…wow, whatta great guy. It was as though it never happened, and that receipt was there to remind me…it did happen. But, I crumpled it up, and threw it away…and I smiled. Thinking back to it all…and realizing how far I’ve come and how far you all have come here on this site. I don’t post much here anymore…not for any particular reason, just cutting back my time online, in general.
On another note…talked to a good mutual friend, who I know is part of the ex N’s minions, but I don’t care anymore. I’m kinda past it all, in relation to all that now. That said, he ‘informed’ me last night, that the ex N has a new gf, but that everyone feels he talks her up so much, to avoid anyone asking about me. He told me…’’D, he still hurts over you. That’s just my take.’’
I dunno…can narcissists feel pain? Maybe. I said in reply…’’that’s all in the past now. Maybe he talks about this new person because he really does care.’’ He said, ‘’Well, he hasn’t changed his FB status and he still is active on a dating website.’’ (guess I’m not the only one who looks up people on dating websites…) But, I share this with you, because it no longer matters to me…I know he won’t ever truly change, deep down. He’s a narc…and always will be. Subtle nuances may change, but his core won’t change.
The fact that he’s still showing active on a dating site, not surprised either. But…such is life in narc-ville. Lol I do feel sorry for the new person. She probably has absolutely no idea …that he is on a dating website. Probably wonders why he isn’t changing his FB status. We know the drill.
Finding this receipt today, it caused me to think about him and the past. But, it’s no longer my present.
Just sharing…hope you’re all doing well.
Hi D, I agree with Goldie! I
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